Christmasss...zzz..

Last christmas was not a good memory.
Remind me of the song - Last Christmas(if i'm correct on the song title).
Well, just gotta move on.
I've been in my cousin's place since last saturday.
"Christmas holidays" i can say. Haha.
Really had fun in denisa's xmas party.
Being happy is the panadol for the so-called misery.
Or maybe even the cure for it.
But at least i'm happy.
Its rare.
Not that i'm being moody or sad all the while.
But its just cant feel anything.
Neutral to be exact.
Weirdo.
Hope CNY would come real soon.
I would rather not have any ang pao in exchange for a real smile.
Sumtimes find it hard to show it.
Bad actor.
Bit bored again.

Musical Tesla Coils Play Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy [Electrifying !!]

Matchday 2

Matchday 2 of the MUL.
Really appreciate those that allow el nino to play the 5:2 format.
Even though they can do like KBU did.
Was kinda happy to win the 1st match.
Second match was a pile of rubbish. Craps.
Sorry if i reply my chatbox late.
Cuz i can't see the cbox's chatbox in my home.

I don't tell lies.
But often truth are hurtful for anyone to listen.
Even that is your friend.
I've spoke what i spoken.
Judge me however the voices in head sounds.
True friends are those that speaks not keep in silent.
I've no regrets knowing anyone in my life.
Good or bad.
Happy or sad.
Cuz they'll be my every jigsaw puzzle.
Disappointed? Ya.
But like wind. It'll just flew pass.

Thanks for every pieces that have connected my jigsaw puzzle.
Cuz of them i see myself.

These Days...

New semester started.
So long didn't updated.
Had some fun time and headache time.
Not to forget the stupid ASIMO robot.
But still have many arguements still.
Don't really care about it as long as got people to talk with me.
Like the last sunday.
Very few people come up but i had fun.
I'm a person that i think i like to pick things up to negotiate.
That's why you all have what i can say impression.
And i ain't good at explaining things.

London Bridge Falling Down? LOL !

London bridge is FALLING DOWN,
FALLING DOWN, FALLING DOWN,
*repeat*
LOL....
Ok la. Don't laugh you d la.
Gave you a secret identity d ok?
Hon...U play kacau also ya !
LOL..
Really had alot of real laughter and fun this thursday and friday.
So long didn't had so much fun.
So many jokes and teases.
Those who involve know la.
Watched HSM3 today after a long absence from the cinema.
Songs to look for in this movie is:

1. Can I have This Dance
2. Right Here, Right Now
3. Just Wanna Be With You

These songs are so nice.
In fact i downloaded the whole album d.
Now all my closer friends are owned !
Lonely sia.
Anyway thanks hon, denisa, will, grace, yet han and kc for filling colour for me these 2 days.
It does contrast my current life alot !

HSM3 - Can I Have This Dance

Thoughts...

Yesterday really had an unhappy day.
And lost "something" during that disasterful day.
Assignment hard then fine.
But those people please stop bugging la.
I'm not a dictionary. Don't know everything.
Really pisssed when you're cracking for something.
Something else came to add the trouble.
Anyway passed up the assignment.
Really wish there's people that can make me feel better then.
But it didn't happen.
Think i almost understand what do a friend told me about friends.
But words that said is not same with the action taken.
Circumstances maybe?
Or just part of the human habit of being "hipocrit"(spelling error).
Well.
Whatever la.
Its not my matter.
Why do i care.
Just don't come for me when its back to problems.
And i know what i worst in.
Please don't point the finger before you cleared what that you don't see yourself.

1000 Words (Piano Version)

Found the nicest 1000 words piano.
Wasted few hours to download it from youtube.
Now i know how d.
Dont regret listening to it again.
The starting feel so sushi king.
Maybe cause of the similarity of the music tone i guess.
The whole song was pretty much perfect to me.
Especially the soft piano parts.
Just bit cacat in middle bit and ending.
So mixed feeling.
Songs or music are sometimes best listen through heart.
Close your eye and indulge in it.
I have the mp3 format if anyone wants.
Below is the link.

Tag is Like a Bacteria

Sniff sniff.....
Little gal infected me with TAG again....
But being a nice person i wont spread it around de...
Hehe..

Tagged by: little gal....
1. What day, date and time is it?checking..err..thurs,23rd oct 2008,2113
2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?woa..complex..nid do survey 1st..
3. Have you ever thought of committing suicide?i dun wan turn ghost la..so ugly..
4. What would you do if you won the Miss Universe?i'll commit suicide..
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?i love all my frens*..
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?ppl say being loved is more blessed..but if no1 take da initiative 2 love some1 else then no1 will b loved..
7. What would be the most ideal way to wake up to in the morning?noe-ing tht sum1 will b looking 4 ur smile
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?wishes her all da best...
9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? Your gf/bf or an actress/actor?question not specific..act 4 wat 1st?movie?
10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?depends on wats da previous break up is lo..
11. How would you see yourself in ten years time.?err..cant fantasy la..if not i got carry away whose gonna take responsibility?
12. What makes you happy?if u can make me smile then u made me happy..
13. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?make sure im not in my dream still..
14. Would you give all in a relationship?love sum1 cant b more than 80%..
15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?woa..wont lk tis lo..i target 1 by 1 de..
16. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?it depends..
17. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?latter..cuz u noe thr'll always b sum1 bhind u..not those things la..
18. If your girlfriend/boyfriend told u that she/he is actually a prince/princess, what will u do?s if enchanted is LIVE?zz..rite..

So "MAN"

LOL.
Think i must be so crazy to post such thing.
I know how to change car tyre liao.
Not big deal.
Feel like doin it the second time lo.
I'm nuts i know.
LOL.

T@g by little gal

sounds like i kena bully le.
always tag me wan.
T.T

tagged by: little gal-yi ping =.=
1. Would you marry for money?no lo
2. Have you had braces?no oso..my teeth all in nice order
3. Could you live without a computer?CANT !!!(refer my previous post)+i'll b 2 bored
4. If you could live in a different decade which would it be?i lk now..
5. Do you drink enough water?no..if plain water no..
6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take em off?so lame la tis question..no shoe in house la..
7. What are your favorite fruits?well..kiwi?dragon fruit?mango?pear?n anything tht not taste bad..
8. What is your favorite place to visit?currently no..
9. Are you photogenic?im photo-phobia la..
10. Do you dream in color or black and white?i c images..but tink got colour gua..
11. Why do you take surveys?i'll take if its needed..if not juz screw it..
12. Do you drink alcohol?2% alcohol..
13. What is the most beautiful language?err......dunno..
14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?ask me again when i got gf..
15. WHAT do you like MOST: Sunrise or sunset?sunset.. cuz wont wake up 2 c sunrise
16. Do you want to live until you're 100 yrs old?if im wit da 1 i love..
17. Is a flat stomach important to you?i cant grow fat la
18. What body part of the opposite sex is sexiest?common sense la..but i tink eye oso..
19. When watching scary movies are the lights on or off?OFF !..more syok !
20. Do you believe in magic?s if it'll work?show off 2 gals then i tink can la..lol..
21. Do you believe in ghosts?really curious bout it but dun wish 2 c any..
22. Do you like to watch cartoons?YESH..spongebob!
23. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?4got liao..
24. Do you write poems?internet copy paste la..
25. Do you snore?search internet 4 tis.."y ppl snore"
26. You sleep more on your back, front,or sides?front
27. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?no thx..
28. Are you basically a happy person?emo person
29. Are you tired?da question getting lamer
30. Did you drink anything with caffeine?tink so
31. How do you take your coffee?...sip by sip? or maybe pouring them into a cup and carry it around?latter
32. How many landline/cellphones do you have in your house?dun so "ke po" pls
33. Do you get along with your parents?hmm..not really i guess
34. Do u smoke?no..da smell sucks la..curse all da smokers
35. Do you have a kitty?yes..human pet..lol..
36. Have you ever had a birthday party?err..personal 1 got la..wit fam..
37. What do you do when you're sad?shhhhhhhhh..juz b quiet..
38. What do you need most now?warmth when im cold
39. What song are you listening to now?To Zanarkand-orchestra(ff song)
40.what are you craving right now?holidays..

Reformated

Gosh this is a weekend that my window corrupted.
Bad things are that everything are LOST!
Including all the pictures, musics, and not to say GAMES !!
Sigh. Oh well.
Good things are that all the past memories that are kept in the computer is lost.
Its all released. Nothing for me to refer back to my past.
Little gal seems to be quite busy with her new boy friend i GUESS.
But she haven't notify the news to me yet, as in whether it's true anot.
Haha. Sounds "ke po" le me.
That's why i have NO reply! Hmph!
Think i'll have lesser fraction of time from her. Hmm. Sien.
I want my games back ah.......
Energy wont lost. It transfers.
Mine transfered to being with my friends and ocupy my time to talk and sms with them.
Thanks little gal for occupying partial of my time.
And to the others that helped me whether directly or indirectly. Thanks.
Everything that we've been through is just part of life that makes us stronger.
So that we wont tumble upon ourselves again in the future.

Myself Again

Back to only myself again?
Denisa has a point in saying every one needs friends.
But how is friends define?
Will they keep their words even if they don't realize that they'd broke it?
I really can't see what i hope for.
Can't lost them. Because they are the only ones left.
But i'm not any way close to them.

"No one is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry."

"Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when
we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful."

I'm just a substitute. Filing left over gaps.

I'm so Tired

Tired of cheating myself.
Tired of expecting alot which doesn't seems significant.
Tired of doing assignments.
Tired of argue-ing.
Tired of trying.
Tired of believing miracle.
Tired of being myself.
Who am i?
What do i care?
Why do i believe?
How is to try?

Tag Reply..zz

TAGGED by: yi ping
Instructions: Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
1. What are your nicknames?
ask my cat..she noes all..
2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
depends on mood..non any specific tho..
3. What kind of news do you read?
sports n entertainment lo..
4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
thts a gal question 4 sure..but fact is i wont get fat..so ntg 2 giv up!
5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
depends on de criteria of suviving..
6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
i dunno..lost direction in life?
7. What do you feel like doing right now?
watching love you lately mv..
8. If there's someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
i would..but dun plan 2 "hai" any ppl 4 now..
9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
lame lame n lame..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..i lz 2 do tag la...
10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
juz being who she is...
11. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
go google search la...there's oni will b those few ans..
12. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
sry lo..im very "select food"(cantonese)..
13. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
happy..tink i seriously nid tht..
14. If you have a chance, which part of you character would you like to change?
im an error in da beginning...2 much 2 chg d..
15. How do you see yourself in 10 years?
still alive...
16. What is the thing you love about yourself?
ntg...!
17. What is the type of song you like to listen to (music genre)?
if u noe me u'll noe...
18. What kind of supernatural powers you think you have?
im a human la...normal human...
19. What's your favourite time of the year?
rainning season.....

I tag no one....

Reason to The Question

What is the reason of us being here?
I really curious about the answer.
But i guess no one can really answer it.
To earn money? To find the missing pieces of our life?
Or to fill in the blank left by someone else?
Everything is so contrast with everything.
As in everything has its own oppposite.
Just like after a heavy downpour you will have a beautiful rainbow.
I saw another importance after losing one.
Maybe thats what that keeps us searching and going?
Maybe thats why we should learn to appreciate but not complaining?
Hmm. Dunno. But i do hope every nice thing will stay.

Game On !

WEE...........
Won the sunway tournie yesterday along with all the el-ninos mates.
Think i wasn't playing that hard cause got struck down by flu n cough.
The final match was like mad weh.
We all got so pissed then el-ninos scored consecutively then sunway scored back.
So classic.
Anyway glad that we won.
Suffer too much sun burn until can't sleep well man.
And thanks capt. for KFC dinner yestaerday night.
Now waiting ping to update the team blog after her trial.

F***ing Day

There are certain kind of people that i pretty much dislike or to a certain extend HATE. People that broke promise, act smart, argue for no reason, cheater, or etc. These can be further elaborated though. Sometimes not just money or third party involvement will affect friendship, DO count games in as well. It's really "DU LAN" when your so called friend could lost thier cool and afford to go mouth-war with you just cause of something they themselves dont even clear of. Atop of that, screw that lrt scam MALAY. He have 2 days before i start swearing and cursing him. Feel so angry when all these things happen together. People to talk with? Sorry. No. In fact, close friends i don't really have. Pen-pal n friends yes. Blame me for saying so. Cause i can't see "IT" at all.

Happy Saturday

Happy are meant to be kept
Sad are to be forgetten
I'll miss 6th of september alot
Details on the team blog or ping's blog

What's Wrong With Me

I know sometimes i'm wrong in a way. But why i always screw things up. Even i knew before that i'm not supposed to do so. I really hate my unconsious self. It feel as if sometimes i'm the hulk and i don't wish to release the unconsious self out but somehow it did end up like the hulk-can't control. Someone seriously need to scold me for all that i've did wrong. I don't wanna spread the effect of my "disease" to those that i know. Because sometimes it'd be to late to know that you've hurt those that you never intend to hurt.

Early Celebration

Today got cake for me. Think its my first time from friends. Ya. It is. Was nice. Miaw gave card. LoL. So cute. Thanks little kitten. Hehe. Yesterday combo movie with ping, hon and gh. I watched Mirrors n Wall E. Both movie was nice. Aiya. I also dont know how to write. Was basicly going through same thing everyday la. Sounds dull le.

EMO?

I guess i was bit. Sorry guys.
Didn't mean it. But it juz came.
I still don't have much update though.
Aiya. Not much viewer here also la..

Nothing Much To Post Nia

Hmmm. I guess there's nothing much to be post at the moment. But i'm really glad that everyone is okay with theirs current life. Because if they are happy, i'll be happy too. Well, guys...we are planning a bbq party or gathering for el-ninos on a saturday this month most probably. After training at evening til about 9-10 i guess. Still in planning phase though. But looking forward to make it a real one.

Taylor's Indoor Tounie - 1st in Msia !!

Heard that few friends going kbu on saturday. So i just join in the fray. I was late then. Was told that bryan went home because he thought the training was cancelled. Gh "belanja" us lunch at TTDI pizza hut. Kind of filling man. He can ate so much weh!! Scary. Then after sending ping home, went to gh place awhile b4 went for training at taman jaya.

Sunday. Match day. Gh's tournie. He organize it ma. Taylor's indoor tournie. Played at puchong's dont know what very big de badminton court there. Gh think he made it sucess and also screw it. Well, dont mind about what they perceive la okay? Its passed ma. So damn tired la. Got blue black lump at elbow and leg. Ouch. Made me recall how i cared. Those days. Well hey, el-nino won 3rd place weh!! Wee. All the effort work out today. To the hamper keeper, the can of lychee is mine. Pls reserve that for me!!

The Dark Knight Rocks!

Watched batman yesterday with gh and ping. Damn awesome man the movie. So many different element in a story. Change of love to hate, crazy to being ethnical and so lots more. Definately a movie not to be missed. I don't mind watching it again lo actually.

Viva La Weekend

Saturdey basicly started off with cabal. LoL. Too sien d la. Nothung to do also. Hmmm. Then get out of home at about 4pm. Plan to get a surf pant at mv with gh, mh and ping. Walk around mv like nuts la. Finally bought 1 at radioactive. Damn cheap weh. LoL. Then huan go TTDI get his chickenssssss. 3 bucket man. Those are his SI to the campfire at chs at 7pm. I bought mine d la. So guai eh me. Mh is also an illegal immigrant there. Though im pretty sure there are still lots of them la. LoL. Kinda ok la the campfire. William and denisa went also. Met natalie there also. People king scout le. Scary. LoL. Met miaw there also. LoL. My pet.

Sunday i was the 1st to reach chs. Sien dao. Hmmm. Played a 5 vs 5 game. Tiring man. Nat and sam improve so much weh. Gals nowadays so scary. LoL. To all the frisbee guys. Careful them la. LoL. Upcoming event at taman megah. Taylors indoor tournie. Kihraan going but he'll be it late cuz he have class. Now im starting to gather people. Headache.

Intec Open 2008

Wee! Finally there's tournament again. Been waiting for tournaments. Almost gave up waiting for it. Anyway had to get over with it. There will always be different memories of what we've been through. Whether it's shared or it's just yourself. One thing about my team is that i like them so so so much. They are always the best group of people to hang out with. Netherless the best comfort zone to be in. Good friends are like stars. You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

Ya. I know we did screwed up few matches which we should have do better. But at least we did have fun in it. Quite sure everyone will wake up in a very crampy condition. Because me in one. LoL. There's not much about the matches highlight, but we will da bao usj8 next time okay? Lunch chicken rice again. Why can't we have something else? LoL. Kind of bored by chicken rice. Change menu next time la......

After the closing ceremony and stuff, we went back chs on two cars. Samantha and gh is drivers for the team yesterday. Somehow gh's gang in the car initiated a race to chs. OMG. Car racing on federal highway. Potong here potong there. Until both cars came to asia jaya there. Sam's car take the seksyen 14 turning while gh's car take the new town's turning. It was like fast and furious man. LoL. The lame part before that was there occasions where both cars were side by side. As in side by side when cutting la. Guess what happened. Both car's "crew" show middle fingers. LoL. Damn funny la the scene. Too bad didn't take it down. What's unexpected is that natalie and samantha which we thought were very polite from the outside join in the fray with their crews. Damn funny la. LoL.

Gh's car eventually won the race. Everyone laugh when they get out of the car. As tradition,we make loser's sigh in front of the loser's crew. No offence la. LoL. Then it's ipoh kai fan for dinner. Sam was the 1st to finish i guess. So fast weh. Then everyone bid farewell le. Sigh. Can only see everyone again next week. Some of us still have some activity in mind though. Therefore we went mv on gh's car. He sure had wasted alot of petrol earlier. LoL. At 1st we plan for a movie. But then after discovering the length of the queue, we changed plan to arcade gaming. Played daytona as usual and we watched bryan performed on the dance machine. Ping keep playing on the finding difference in photo game. She had zhan zhu nai cha at the very late hour of the day. Sure she slept at toilet de la. LoL. JK. Reach home at about 11+. But really had fun and i'm so so tired.

Hancock

Long time didn't blog. Because not much to update about me lo basicly.

Well, today watched hancock with my college class mates.

It's a nice movie lo acctually. The characters have to sacrifice love in exchange for both's life.

Besides that, it's basicly a funny movie. That's my 3rd movie in this 2 and a half month.

Next week buffer week, then after that exam. Hmm.

So i'm free next week lo.

Damn sien la, like my college friends said, play 5 days only go study 2 days lo.

Think i'm gonna do that. Can't blame me eh.

College assignment haven done yet. Hate to do that man.

No choice la.

Upcoming event, this saturday, got intec open.

Of course going with my team lo.

Who ever that lost contact with us is consider vanished from the team.

Sorry to say that but out pls.

After that, plan to go bon odori lo, but whether going or not depends on the decision of the team after tournie lo. Go la guys. It's not that we get to be fun often right?

And ping, cheer up ya. We will be there for you.

Who Am I Without You Guys

Ya. Bit emo again. But today i was really happy. But happy do bring back the sadness and cruelty of life. Maybe i should just not think so negatively. But cant help it. Sigh. Planning to do a compilation of what we've done together. As a piece of memory to treasure. Planning a trip as well. Night Frisbee coming up soon. Hopefully. Hmm. I don't wanna lost my group. Cuz many happy times make seperation a really hard one. Sometimes i feel so miss everyone every sunday after fris. Every scene of memory flash by. As if it happen again. But its just empty field with no laughter. All just imagination. But sometimes it feels so real. These are what i felt after fris mostly. Well. Back to the happy me during the day. Cyber with those cyber freaks. LoL. My cs sucks la guys. Kena pawn everytime. Gotta improve. Hon as usual same like gh. So yam la. Pity their future wife to be. LoL. Well. For those that didn't stay for dinner at ipoh's. This is what happened.....................

Guess who...Pretty girl???

eeeeeeuuuuuuuuuu !!! So damn gay right?That's balloon actually....

Kung Fu Panda

Yesterday had a late invitation from ping for movie today. Accepted it since i ponteng my friday class. Hey. Look. I'm not the only one that ponteng ya. There are about 90% of my class did the same thing as well. LoL. The lecturer must be damn pissed when he meet us next week.

That time was about 12 when i accepted ping's invitation. Rang mh at that time to ask him go as well. Then comes a =.= answer from him. Say don't wan because he feel that playing cyber game better wo. Anyway can't hook him out for an outting la. Sigh. The next morning message gh. He say go mv can la. But pyramid don't know how to go wo. C'mon la. Your college like just less than a km from there how come don't know how to go? zzz la. But he said later he also not free, so i don't wan to ask further lo. Hehe.

Then the whole morning was cabal-ing and i saw hon also in cabal. His character like so yeng like that. Na ying. LoL. Then hoop on public transport to taylors. Meet ping there. Too bad will got tuition, if not he'd come as well. Sigh. Watched kung fu panda lo. Now i know why everyone say its damn seriously funny. Because it is really funny. Kids laughter was heard all around. The cartoon to me, was like an ice-breaking thing for me to laugh. Though on thurs i'd had an hour and half of crazy laughter at class. Thanks ping for having a day out with me. At least there's one day in my current life that is not lonely. Wish i could smile more and remember how it feels like to smile.

Rainy Sunday

Today went cyber outside my place with huan, ch and will. Mh din come cuz he got VIP stuff to attend to. LoL. Play what we usually play lo. Too bad kinda few ppl. Hmm. Then go frisbee training. Attendance 12 people. Played two match. Second match thrash jiat and bryan de team by 7 point margin. LoL. Just a game ya. Don't get mad. Then gather around and chat. Start rain liao. Play 100m running to collect cons under the rain with will. Eventually lose liao. Because the cons are like stick to the ground d. LoL. Heard that huan and bryan gonna start mount kinabalu climbing tomorrow. All the best la. Don't PK then ok d. JK. Next week gonna be hon's last week before he go to nilai inti. So gotta kai bao him oh guys. Hehe. Hopefully everyone'll come training la ok? If not you are out of the team. No shirt also. I got exam coming soon and assignment waiting to pass up also. So pls don't take it as an excuse ya. If family matter then nothing to say. But at least do inform the other. Anyone.

Voo-Doo-ed!!

OMG. I think i'm like cursed to stay at my college. Really wanna get out of here. It's hell here. As in the lifestyle. So much different than what i expected or that what i can "tahan". Zzz. Hmmm. Recently didn't find anything to update about me. That's why no update about a week. Because just all the same thing happen over and over again. Sienzzz. I think i'm in song listening spree every night. Because there's voices in the lyrics that'll tell me stories. And that it teaches me alot of experience. Reminder also i guess. Substitude for what i've lost and what i need.

Weekend Gone Again!!

Saturday was free. Didn't go for frisbee at kbu because it was way far. So gh ask me join him movie lo. Watched the incredible hulk. Hey. It was a nice movie for me. Then home. After slackin some time with suet wei and gh. Gh like the movie because it got those content. Wtf la him.

The next day-sunday. Kena persuaded by yp and will them. So no choice but to join them and go for federal hotel for yp de kasturi anugerah thingy. That old man damn gek and fan de la. But he so got point la. Anyway we manage to escape from him. LoL. Then go time square lunch. Then arcade play games. If not mistaken mh won daytona again. Kai win. Frisbee time. Not many present. Then we discuss the night frisbee thing which natalie's dad is still on it. Then team t shirt number and colours. They said those that didn't train but just join when got tournaments doesn't deserve the shirt.

Basicly today kinda mixed up la me. Blog writing so sucks la thats why. And see jie? Colour changed liao. LoL. Gay colour.

Stuffs to C?

Tonight we dine in KFC!!!

Hitler experienced puberty at an early age



Kind of fun when i see these above. Hmmm. Still i cant figure out what gone wrong in my life. Time made everything slipped pass us without us even noticing it. Hmmm. I just got up from a wave but the second is coming. Why does everything precious to us will have such ending? A life process? Must it be so hard to live with? Its like having cancer without knowing when Death visits. But when it came, we'll have to surrender. Who are you? Who am I? Sometimes it feel so lost without an objective to pursue. Why you are living on this earth? Ever wonder this question? Without an objective, we are like walking shadows. Clueless, lifeless, dull and grief. I want to reach the ending, but without knowing where to start, how can one start the journey? Learn how to live and you'll know how to die, learn how to die and you'll know how to live.

癌细胞

癌症細胞 - 李家同

老張是我們高中同班同學中唯一念醫學院的同學，
他是癌症醫生。

我們雖然是好朋友，
但我們常常開玩笑說最好不需要去找他。

同班同學聚會，老張一定會到，
他的收入高得不得了，所以有的時候他會請客，
偶爾同學中有人發生一些經濟上的困難，
他也會慷慨解囊。

雖然老張對人很慷慨，卻過著很簡樸的生活，
他每次都坐公共汽車來聚會，他也乘公車離開，
現在有了地鐵，他當然都乘地鐵。
他也從不大吃大喝。

我的感覺是，老張非常不喜歡過非常舒適的生活。

我們都是六十二歲左右的人，
到退休年齡，卻沒有人真正退休。

大概四個月以前聽人家說，老張退休了，
醫院還為他舉行了一個退休儀式，
而且聽說場面有些感傷。

我弄不清楚是怎麼一回事，正想打電話給他，
沒有想到在台北的一家書店碰到了他。
他正在買偵探小說，
看到了我，高興得不得了，一把抓住我，
找了一家環境優雅的咖啡館，
坐下來大談他所喜歡的偵探小說，
我也聽得津津有味。

可是，我注意到一件事，老張瘦了一些。

老張是個聰明人。
他當然知道我已注意到他的消瘦，
他主動地告訴我，
他得了癌症，已經只有幾個月的生命。

對我來講，這真是青天霹靂，
也沒有問現在有沒有治療 ?
因為我想他是這方面的專家，應該知道如何治療。

離開咖啡館的時候，下雨了。
我替老張攔下了一輛計程車，
這是我有生以來，第一次看到老張乘坐計程車。

一個月以後，老張來埔里找我。
他的兒子也是癌症醫生。

我們一起去了附近的農場看油桐花。
那裡的油桐花種在道路兩旁，大樹成蔭，
車子開過滿地的白花，真是奇景。

老張雖然時常面露倦容，
但他一再說不虛此行。
因為，他以後再也看不到
這種遍地都是白花的情境了。

除了看花以外，
老張也對我們的多媒體系統有很大的興趣。
我們的研究生，替他表演了好多有趣的系統。
老張仔細地看這些表演，也問很多有道理的問題。
這也是看到老張的最後一次。

不久，老張就去世了。

我當時心中納悶，為什麼他走得這麼快？
以他的專業素養，
他的癌症一定是初期，
他所得到的治療也一定是最好的。
為什麼他這麼快就走了？
我們都收到了訃聞。
訃聞中除了絕對婉謝花圈這些玩意兒外，
還有一個特別的請求，
請大家在指定的地點坐他們家租的遊覽車去。

訃聞中，好像拒絕任何人開汽車去參加葬禮。
期間來了一大票名醫，他們都面容嚴肅。
我們這些人看了這麼多的名醫，更加深一個疑問：

為什麼老張走得如此之快？

謎底終於揭曉了，老張的兒子致詞的時候，
告訴我們一個我們都不知道的故事：
老張從頭到尾沒有接受任何治療。

為什麼呢？

老張的兒子在禮堂中放映了一段錄影帶，
在這段錄影帶中，老張解釋了何謂癌症細胞？


我們常以為癌症細胞是不健康的細胞，
其實不然，
癌症細胞是最健康、最有活力的，
別的細胞雖然會分裂，但分裂會有止境。

癌症細胞的分裂永遠不會停止。

不斷的分裂需要養分，但是人的養分有限，
癌症細胞的不斷分裂
最後將其他正常細胞的養分吸取得一乾二淨。


因此老張認為我們這些人都是 [癌症細胞 ]。

因為太健康，所以我們吃得多。
因為有錢，所以我們消耗掉大量能源。
可是，地球上就這麼多資源，
我們用得多，其他人類就倒楣了。

老張在錄影帶中一再地強調：
百分之八十的資源，由百分之二十的人類消耗掉。

他也一再地提醒我們：
如果，全世界的人都像我們這樣地吃遠洋的魚，
全地球海裡的魚只夠我們吃一天。

他一再地問一個問題：
如果，全世界的人都像我們一樣地享受，
地球上的資源能撐多久？
舉例來說，四十年後，石油就用光了。

老張的錄影帶也介紹了
非洲二千五百萬人得到了愛滋病的慘相，
這一段的聲音被消除了。

但這一段靜寂的錄影帶，帶給我們極大的震撼。

老張的兒子沒有解釋
為什麼老張不願意接受治療？

那一段沒有任何聲音的錄影帶，解釋了一切。

老張早就對於他的生活好感到內疚。
所以，他一直儘量地過得很簡單。

最近非洲大批人得到愛滋病，
卻沒有人得到任何治療。
歐美雖然有治療愛滋病的藥，
但這些非洲窮人，如何有錢買這種藥呢 ?

老張熱愛生命，但是他不願他的生命影響了別人，
他不願意看到自己太健康，太健康就是癌症細胞了。

最後，老張提到他自己的病，
他說：他的病是不可能痊癒的，
花了很多錢以後，他可以多活三至四年，
在這三、四年內，他所能做的非常之少，
所以他不願意為了他的這三、四年的生命，
而花費人類大量的醫藥資源。

老張的兒子也在葬禮上告訴了大家：
老張臨死以前，捐了大筆的錢給一個慈善機構，
專門用作醫治非洲愛滋病人之用。

老張如果多活幾年，
也許可以醫治一些人，
但是他的拒絕治療， 卻是一個強有力的震撼教育。
前天，我們同學會，
每人一個盤餐，大家不發牢騷，
每個人都對自己的命運感到滿足。

我家現在平時只開電扇，有客人來才開冷氣。
我們也越吃越簡單，
每次餐後有香蕉吃就心滿意足矣。

我住的是公寓，
有時，難免想念當年在國外住的獨門獨園房子。
現在，我的想法也改了。
如果，全台灣的人都這樣住，
台灣恐怕會看不到一片青山，一片綠水，
全台灣只看到房子了。

老張說得有道理 ，
我們不能生活得太好，
我們不該是癌症細胞。
我們應該將青山綠水留給下一代，留給別人。

老張瀟灑地離去，使我們可瀟瀟灑灑地活著。

我們都輕鬆多了。



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Joey arrr...

Joey arrr..dun tag liao la..sigh..i very lz le..so many questions..

8 things i am passionate about : frisbee
8 things i say too often : sorry
8 books i have read recently : none
8 things i learned last year : tis year got, last year no
8 people i tag : whoever that wan 2 do so

5 things found in my bag: wallet, hp, thumbdrive, notes, student id
favourite things in my room: bed, pillow(virtually everything)
5 things I've always wanted to do: be happy
things I'm currently into: study n friends
5 presents you wish for: true n sincere wishes
The person who tagged you is Joey
Your 3 impressions of Joey: 1.gal 2.friend 3.gamer

Pass the tag to 5 people that you wish to know how they feel about you: anyone

Tagged by Joey again
Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry? no idea
2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket? alaska
3. If you could have one word that'll describe your mood right now, what would it be? messy
4. Do you think money can buy happiness? nope
5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? 2 be happy always
6. Do you believe you can survive without money? nope
7. What are you afraid to lose the most? myself
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do? make myself happy
9. How would you describe the person u like *at the moment*? no comment
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you? 1.friendly 2.easy going 3.tagger
11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half? no comment
12. If you could rewind time would you? definately
13. What's your ambition? still verifying
14. Are you emotional? yup
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? friends
16. If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be? cant tell
17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change? reformat da whole me
18. What music have you been listening to recently? ppl that noe me noes
19. What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could? q12
20. What is your favourite thing in ur room? everything

Something Bad Gonna Happen

I don't know why but i can feel that it's coming. I don't want history to be repeat again. Like last time when we are having sunday practise but then everything fell apart. To few people, transport problem and so on. One by one, everyone that i know will be leaving. This time the tranport problem will definately be an issue. We all will be like thousands mile apart. Huan to UK or USA, Hon to Inti nilai, Bryan'll be leaving too i guess, Ping also. Sometimes why these thing'll happen?If there's the necessity to feel sad when friends leaving, why god meet us?It's so strange. Maybe i have not yet know my college friends deep enough yet. But i do feel like communicating with NPCs(non-player characters) like in online game. It's so not real. Whenever i'm in college, i'll think of my usual gang of friends. It's like you'll miss home when you are far away from it. That feeling. They are like my family i guess. Like i said to hon, it's more hurtful than broke up. Because broke up is just a piece of memory, friendship are a collection full of happy, sad, arguements and much more in it. But the feeling of losing grasp on it feels like what happening to you is coming to a halt. Well, maybe i'm thinking alot again. That's what you guys would say to me. But now it's like everytime we gather together it's like or gonna be like our last. How i wish it's so not true. How i wish i could know you guys again.

Lame nya

..wtf man..publish post liao oni i noe i kena tagged..zzz..lol..

Tagged by Joey

Link to your tagger and post these rules.
List eight random facts about yourself.
Tag 8 people at the end of your post and list their names.
Let them know that they have been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.


1. Hate study
2. Love frisbee
3. Enjoy hanging out with friends
4. Like CABAL
5. Like counter strike n DoTA
6. Quiet????
7. Looking forward to meet new friends???
8. Looking for truth????

People that "kena" tag:
1. Bryan
2. Yi Ping.
3-8. (i guess bettr not disturb them 1st)(lol)

What A Weekend

..wat a weekend..
..sat early in da mornin went 2 kbu 2 play or train wit will,hon,jiat,yi ping,darren,hee xiang,saw jin,bryan,kc..
..then break time ma try join da senior player awhile lo..
..i guess i run 2 gek of a sudden d..
..til i cant survive lastin more than a point..
..cuz head was so pain..lk gonna blackout lk that de feelin..

..after that go lunch ss2..
..kfc..suprizingly hon din able 2 finish his meal..
..he out of form liao..lol..
..will hon n kc go cyber play awhile while i go haircut at kim marie wit yi ping(she recommed de la)..
..cuz she wanna cut her hair 2..but turn out she wanna cut next time..
..so she juz wait til i finish then v go meet cyber boyz at INC..
..eventually i join in n play oso..will left 4 ttc half an hour later..
..n yi ping gotta go home oso..so juz me hon n kc on cs n cabal..
..bout 5 somethin..v went back ttc there 2 meet up will cuz his dad'll pick us up 2 his place..overnite ma..

..reach ttc there d..saw denisa n will..then ma fool around wit them lo..
..kc n hon then grew hungry..so went 7-11 buy maggi..
..suprizingly when v came back..denisa n will lost liao..
..then.................but v refer it 2 C5..lol..

..after dinner at will's place v go cyber play cs n cabal again..til bout 1 somethin in da mornin..man..syok er..lol..
..when back home d,v play cho dai di til around 3..
..then kc n hon take turn 2 play comp til they lk rarely sleep..
..i sleep til da next mornin..

..breakfast at satellit..wan tan mee..hot til got smoke de..
..then ride on samantha's car n v go 2 a field near taylor there 4 a frenly against usj 8..yeah....beat them..but it was 2 easy..not fun..ni way ok la..
..hmm..then lunch at ipoh kai fan..
..after that da cau gei gang go my place there de cyber play again..
..i went home 4 a bath then rejoin them..
..v r lk addicted 2 cabal liao ..lol..especially hon..
..but then my wallet dry liao..cuz da cyber cost bout RM30..T.T..
..T.T..
..well ni way..had fun wit them tis weekend..thx alot guys..

Most Important Thing in Life

..fren of cuz..that's wat v cant really live witout..
i feel much better now..i guess i'll b able 2 get over it permanently soon..
assignment finally done..
a very very last min de..very fun doin last min work..

sat gonna cut hair then watch mui performance at bkt jalil..
overnite at will place..
then its pay back time..
juz lk my chemical romance de album name- 3 cheers 4 sweet revenge..
lol..wanna trash usj 99..haha..
if any1 here free and got activity pls invite me oso..i wanna join..
i wanna be in the tranquil of sounds n voices..
wanna b wit every1 i noe n mayb meet some1 new..
wanna feel somethin new n fresh..

Back 2 Nightmare

..o shit..hol end..
n seems lk everythin turned gloomy again..
sigh..back 2 coll d..
sigh..really wish cud hav more time wit fren..

i hate fights..which kinda bgin 2 show itself through assignment n stuff..
really hard 2 find same frens s wat i hav now..
which at least noe n understand me..
its lk s if im in da survivor series in coll..
hectic..pressure..hardly laugh..hmm..

i found out wat's been keepin me sad..
its habit..n oso loneliness..
habit cuz of......habit...
loneliness cuz i find no sense of belonging at current life if witout fren 2 chat..
the earlier was no longer a prob now..
in fact im really happy..
cuz...blessin in disguise finally show itself i guess..
wat that mite turn out 2 b a bad endin had now turn a rare sight..
the latter i still need time 2 adjust myself in coll..

ppl say habit can change..
but hw often v'll c a person change his habit?..
especially if da habit is somethin worth every moment 2 treasure..
habit show hw u react 2 ur surroundin..n hw it affect u..
changin it show sincerity n determination..
n wat u've promised 2 some1..

im tryin new postin style..
u guys tink wud tis post's postin style better than da previous posts?..
do tell me wat u tink ya..
cuz i tink this wud appear easier 2 read..

Breeze

..last nite finally..its solved..feel lk much lighter now..cuz all da mist of mistery is cleared..hmm..on da contrary..if theres no start..there'll b no endin..cuz u wont noe wat is happiness witout feelin sadness..all these is part of life cycle..i've learn appreciatin wat in hand now..now that i let it go..hope everythin'll start a new..juz lk wat v both agreed..hmm..no tinkin back of past..cuz it'll juz slow u down n drag u 2 suffer..whose fault..whose blame..these things no longer important..cuz there'll always b rainbow after da rain..n it's juz view of perspective that alter 1's thought..wish her luck..givin is better than receivin..

Holiday Blues

..at least i hav somethin 2 do now..thx..but still..hmmm..



tagged by: yi ping



1. What is the most important thing in your life?
4 now..her..but then..hmm..



2. Will you consider a sexual relationship before marriage?
not in mood 2 tink bout it..



3. Do you smoke?
nope..



4. What is the latest gadget you own?
a thumbdrive..



5. Who did you mostly text yesterday?
her..



6. How old are you and are you a virgin?
17.75 years old..yea..



7. What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
em..bus ticket i guess..



8. Chocolate, oreos or villa?
choc..



9. Where do you wish to get married?
new zealand..



10. How old you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
cant tink of it now..



11. How many kids do you want?
cant tink of it now oso..



12. Are you in love?
it's complicated..



13. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
dinner i always had at home de..but i guess da last restaurant is McD..



14. Name the latest book that you had bought?
my foundation eng textbook..



15. What is your full name?
lame question..



16. Do you prefer your mother or your father?
mom i guess..



17. Do you believe in GOD?
no really..but more of da cycle of karma n stuff lk that..



18. Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time?
juz her'll do..



19. Christina or Britney?
huh?



20. Do you do your laundry?
nope..my mom does it 4 me..



21. The most exciting place you want to go?
alaska..2 c tis..



22. Hugs or kisses?
both de..but then..hmm..


23. Single or attached?
it's complicated..


24. Point out 5 things that made the person who tagged you associated with you.
i. 1 of my frisb teammate
ii. 1 of my gud fren
iii. facebook.com
iv. blogger.com
v. hotmail.com


i tagged...chee kin, joey & zhi shan..

The Call-Regina Spektor(Narnia-Prince Caspian)

The Call - Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into a hope

Which then turned into a quiet thought

Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder

'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back

When you call me

No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing

Doesn't mean it's never

Been this way before

All you can do is try to know

Who your friends are

As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon

And follow the light

You'll come back

When it's over

No need to say good bye

You'll come back

When it's over

No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning

It's just a feeling and now one knows yet

But just because they can't feel it too

Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger

'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back

When they call you

No need to say good bye

You'll come back

When they call you

No need to say good bye

..sometimes wat's a lost mayb is also a bleesin in disguise..at least it end in quiet n peace..feel kinda lk tis song..a bittersweet ending..optismistic yet touchin..tis movie is nice..2 bad they dun hav more time 2 tell susan n caspian's love affection..if not im sure it'll b way better suit wit da song..my top recommended original soundtrack 4 now..4 those who read tis..make sure u'll always b appreciate wat that is around u..cuz i really learnt alot from wat i've been through..mayb u'll underestimate it 4 now..but when u really lost somethin that really matters 2 u..u'll noe wat appreciate means..wats strange is that ppl'll oni regret once they lost somethin..n sometimes it'll b 2 late 2 do anythin..4 those who regained wats lost..pls do treasure it now n always..dun leave it til da very last of time..lettin go is a release..a path 2 peace..da best way 2 solve any conflict..n now i understand it..

Early Winter

..next whole week i gonna hav my holidays..mostly gonna spend it wit assignment i guess..even if there's no assignment i tink i myself oso dunno wat 2 do..hmm..seems lk snow starts fallin down fron da sky 4 me..a brief 1 or a blizzard?..well..i dunno..she seems lk avoidin me..i guess..hmm..mayb she's bz wit exam..but if so..hw come..there's time 4 wonderin around rather than revisin?..that 1 i dunno..relax perhaps..hmm..

I Wont Give Up & I'll Always B Waiting 4 U

..assignment almost cramped me up..mayb its better 2 let it tranquilize me 4 da time bein..mayb i shud let her 2 hav some time n space 2 tink..juz that sometimes it's hard 2 feel lonely..but i hav 2 tink in her perspective 2..actually i can solve it wit her if oni i cud get in2 her..cuz i tink sumhw im still outside of her..i hardly can hav da chance 2 explain myself..mayb she doesn't wanna noe my reasons..cuz she's been 2 protective of me..dun wan me 2 b left alone..but in da process she hurt herself..until it forms a pressure on herself..that make her feel so hard 2 communicate wit me..i feel both of us so lk bein framed by fate..wat i hope now is mayb someday later she wud listen 2 my explaination..at least 2 noe wat i've done n y..sumhw i still feel there's still some words she kept inside her..i dun wish her 2 b suffer cuz of me..hmmm..ni way..i wont ever giv up n i'll always b waitin 4 u..

The Recall

..i recall back those beautiful memories wit u again..there's a warm flow of feelin rushin 2 da heart..how i wish i cud juz stay at that time frames where v used 2 b..those happy moments..heart touchin scenes..i feel so com4table wit u by my side..so relax..u r lk my everythin..but i guess i ruin it did i..hurtin u so much..im so so sorry..i feel that i really start 2 loosin u..fully loosin u..im afraid..afraid that its all over 4 me..afraid that u juz walk away from my reality....

Am I Dead?

..i cant heard my heart beat..it's lk its dead or its reluctant 2 cont..sometimes i find it hard 2 bear da nite..cuz whenever im alone or in quiet surroundin..she's da 1st that comes in my mind..memories can b wat that inspire u..but it can b oso wat that stops u from progressin..if u ever watch will smith's im da legend..i guess v almost share da same feelin minus da hate..fren mite b ur cure..but in my case its lk hoping 2 c flyin stars everynite..my fault oso mayb..wat i can do now is juz 2 let time 2 consume my pain..set it free..let it go..hope it gone..wish it well..thats one of da hardest things 2 do..after that mayb i'll juz keep my heart in a locker n froze it up..til some1 find it n melt it again..so lk davy jones's style..

Letting It Go

..never thought of tis song wud sound so real now..hmm..journey that crosses each other b4'll eventually separate each other..there'll b pain n sadness s both journey entangled each other 4 a long time..but it'll b fine..cuz both shared many beautiful memories 2gather..da stars' bottle..da 1st movie..da 1st kiss..da bbq nite..da arguement..n many otherz.........both'll cont their journey hoping each other da best of luck..one'll still always look after da other 1..ensure that there's no harm or gloominess appear..cuz 1'll still love da other very much..even though da cruelty of fact did seperate both..

Wat is Balance?

..find it so hard 2 achieve nowadays...s in relationship..n da balance between college life n rest time..at times i'd feel lk quitin everythin n juz rest at home..nothin that'll bother me then..sometimes when a certain expectation is set..ppl tend 2 hope that it wud turn out that way..da fact is nothin'll turn out 2 b wat u wan in tis world..there'll always b setbacks..so that u'll noe wats important n wat's not..i guess i've expect 2 much..cuz it's not parallel wit wat've i expected 2 b..it turn out that v actually doesn't noe each other well..is it 2 b cont expectin again or juz put it on a permanent halt?..things wud b pretty much da same s wats happenin now til both agree on a path..

Busted U8

...next time or on july..u wont b able 2 beat us again..cuz i saw hw u guys play d..n there's not much space of improvement 4 u guys d..noe y v lost?..cuz v din plan our tactics..n s far s im concerned..u guys did hav some tactics which v din used b4..v now on our changin phrase..wait til u c us again..n im sure my team mates'll b lookin 4ward 2 send u guys 2 dustbin..

Finally - Fergie

Finally - Fergie

Songwriters: Stacey Ferguson, Stefanie Ridel, John Legend

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream

Cinderella theme

Crazy as it seems

Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day

But I would have to wait make so many mistakes

I couldn't comprehend as I watched it unfold

This classic story told I left it in the cold

Walking through unopened doors that led me back to you

Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth

I finally got lost inside of you

I finally know I needed to grow

And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally

Now my destiny can begin

Though we will have our differences

Something strange and new is happening

Finally

Now my life doesn't seem so bad

Its the best that I've ever had

Give my love to him finally

I remember the beginning you already knew

I acted like a fool

Just trying to be cool

Fronting like it didn't matter

I just ran away

On another face

Was lost in my own space

Found what its like to hurt selfishly was scared to give of me

Afraid to just believe

I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place

Stumbled through the nets that I have made

Finally got out of my own way

I've Finally started living for today

I finally know I needed to grow

And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally

Now my destiny can begin

Though we will have our differences

Something strange and new is happening

Finally

Now my life doesn't seem so bad

Its the best that I've ever had

Gave my love to him Finally

Finally, Finally

Finally

Now my destiny can begin

Though we will have our differences

Something beautiful is happening, is happening

Finally

Now my life doesn't seem so bad

Its the best that I've ever had

Give my love to him finally

ohhhhhhh, Finally, Finally, Finally

..kinda lk tis song..bloggin time gettin less now..da assignments all at once man..hmm..heavy..

1st Day Absent In College

..sigh..ruin my record..absent liao 2day..doc said cuz mayb intestine got stretched or tangled 2gather..no wonder pain 4 bout 12 hours..hmm..cant sleep well oso..damn pain..2day got mc so rest..doc said cant exerxise 4 a week wo..how can..dun care bout his advise le..mayb juz try not 2 play so pok lo tis thurs..hmm..hav 2 eat non greasy nor fried stuff..then doc giv me eat charcoal..-_-"..really scared stomach ache liao..hmm..gonna watch iron man tis fri..hope its a nice movie le..

Wo Huai Nian De

我 怀 念 的 - Stefanie Sun

我 問 為 什 么 那 女 孩 傳 簡 訊 給 我

而 你 為 什 么 不 解 釋 低 著 頭 沉 默

我 該 相 信 你 很 愛 我 不 愿 意 敷 衍 我

還 是 明 白 你 已 不 想 挽 回 什 么

想 問 為 什 么 我 不 再 是 你 的 快 樂

可 是 為 什 么 卻 苦 笑 說 我 都 懂 了

自 尊 常 常 將 人 拖 著 把 愛 都 走 曲 折

假 裝 了 解 是 怕 真 相 太 赤 裸 裸

狼 狽 比 失 去 難 受

我 怀 念 的 是 無 話 不 說

我 怀 念 的 是 一 起 做 夢

我 怀 念 的 是 爭 吵 以 后 還 是 想

要 愛 你 的 沖 動

我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌

記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最 暖 的 胸 口

誰 記 得 誰 忘 了

想 問 為 什 么 我 不 再 是 你 的 快 樂

可 是 為 什 么 卻 苦 笑 說 我 都 懂 了

自 尊 常 常 將 人 拖 著 把 愛 都 走 曲 折

假 裝 了 解 是 怕 真 相 太 赤 裸 裸

狼 狽 比 失 去 難 受

我 怀 念 的 是 無 話 不 說

我 怀 念 的 是 一 起 做 夢

我 怀 念 的 是 爭 吵 以 后 還 是 想

要 愛 你 的 沖 動

我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌

記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最

暖 的 胸 口

我 怀 念 的 是 無 言 感 動

我 怀 念 的 是 絕 對 炙 熱

我 怀 念 的 是 你 很 激 動 求 我 原

諒 抱 的 我 都 痛

我 記 得 你 在 背 后 也 記 得 我 顫 抖 著

記 得 感 覺 洶 涌 最 美 的 煙 火 最 長 的 相 擁

誰 愛 的 太 自 由 誰 過 頭 太 遠 了

誰 要 走 我 的 心 誰 忘 了 那 就 是 承 諾

誰 自 顧 自 地 走 誰 忘 了 看 著 我

誰 讓 愛 變 沉 重 誰 忘 了 要 給 你 溫 柔

(我 怀 念 的) 我 還 有 想 要 愛 你 的沖 動

我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌

記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最 暖 的 胸 口

我 放 手 我 讓 座 假 洒 脫

誰 懂 我 多 么 不 舍 得

太 愛 了 所 以 我 沒 有 哭 沒 有 說

..wanna find tis song quite sometime ago d..now found it..tis song is nice yet every word is so meaningful..sometimes ppl'll oni appreciate things after they lost it..but often it'll b 2 late 2 do anythin when somethin is lost..i recalled back that time..recalled every moment used 2 b 2gather..thats wat i can feel through tis song..glad that v r back 2gather now..hmmm..college assignment is piling up d..so hard 2 catch breath on weekdays..wats left is juz weekends that i hope at least there's time 2 b wit her n 2 b enjoyed..in bout 7 more hours man u gonna take on barcelona..all da best 2 man u..

Changes

..life is not a constant..things'll change..n v live 2 learn n 2 adapt..v learn though wat v c, hear, touch, smell n taste..2 c or not 2 c will explain wat is somethin from da outside..but 2 observe v'll c wat is inside..anger'll haze da truth..oni da 3rd party'll sometimes noe hw 2 differenciate..words r da same..words that v hear r not always wat they meant..but more lk a disguise 2 wat it is..words r lk triggers 2 emotions..diff type of sharpness n tones often'll lead 2 diff scenario..sometimes v'll juz speak from our emotions not knowin da consequence..sometimes a little 1st aid'll do..sometimes not even gods can help..wud it b better 2 b silent n keep da thoughts inside davy jones' locker?both yes n no..there's lie n white lie s da result of it..touch smell n taste on da other hand'll bcome less significant s v grew older..if life is juz illusions in our dream..will v b able 2 wake up from its nitemare?n cont in its sweet happy endin?

-i'm nuts-

Realize

Colbie Caillat - Realize

Take time to realize,

That your warmth is

Crashing down on in.

Take time to realize,

That I am on your side

Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,

Then we'd be perfect for each other

and will never find another

Just realized what I just realized

we'd never have to wonder if

we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize

Oh-oh I'm on your side

didn't I, didn't I tell you.

Take time to realize

This all can pass you by

Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,

no it's never gonna be that simple

no I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized

then we'd be perfect for each other

then we'd never find another

Just realized what I just realized

we'd never have to wonder if

we missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same

no it's never the same if you don't feel it too.

If you meet me half way

If you would meet me half way.

It could be the same for you.

If you just realize what I just realized

then we'd be perfect for each other

then we'd never find another

Just realize what I just realized

we'd never have to wonder

Just realize what I just realized

If you just realize what I just realized

OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now

missed out on each other now

Realize, realize

realize, realize

..kinda realize things recently..many things..it's gud 2 learn though..college life still s hectic s ever..still there's more 2 come..more 2 face..more 2 bare..more 2 let go..another defination of wats life is..n pls dun tag me la..lz plus tag not fun d..n sorry if i din go 2 some of u guys' blog..bit tired when i reach home d..not much time 2 check out..but i promise i'll spend sometime on it de k..

Late Update Again Er Me

..tournament day on 5/4 @uitm shah alam..gh pick da team name s el ninos..means da kids..really happy tis tournie..finally can meet fi..really miss her alot..v went there by bus n every1 hav 2 reach chs by 7..no1 late though..v won our 1st match against nottingham 8-1 i tink..but lost da 2nd 1 6-1 2 da host..3rd natch won 5-2 if not mistaken..cant rmb da score d..but eventually got #4 la..gosh no flyin naan..if not no hope 2 play..i still rmb da fun part where some of us get under da big umbrella 4 shelter against rain..tink i'm da 1 that 'found' that nice place 2 hide from rain..v lower da umbrella then bout 9 of us shelter under it..kinda cosy in there..no much wind get through there..i n my fi keepin each other warm while playin grace de 'high' game..kc n sj de team called jin choon..i n fi de called jiun fai..grace n deni de called zi sim..then mh n kihraan de called kihhon..very funny..haha..after our last match i got a suprize..every1 came back from their mud slide lk very normal..then all of a sudden every1 grab me n toss me in2 da mud pool..ewh..i was lk a mud-man..u can c in da pics..haha..really miss da fun v had there..especially missin her after she went home after da team dinner at ipoh chic rice..v had our own little private moment though in da bus..its gonna b another week til i c her again..college life back again n its tiring n bz..really wish everyday is weekend er......

Not again..

..start bz liao..so update'll b kinda late..so tired..summore college de work no plaguerism..sien..now i gotta try cite every source i use liao..

tagged by teh ping again..no........

-You-
First Name
ka fai
Nickname
dun wish 2 tell..ask my fren lar..
Name you wish you had
mine is not bad..any'll do..
What do people normally mistake your name as
ka"h" fai..got 1 extra "h"..zz..need 2 clarify everytime..
Birthday
18 August 1990
Birthplace
Assunta Hospital, PJ
Time of Birth
wanna put a curse on me meh?
Single or taken
taken jor..
Zodiac sign
Leo

-Your Appearence-
How tall are you
din measure long time d..
Wish you were taller
ya
Ideal height
tall la..
Eye color
Dark brown
Eye color you want
any colour
Natural Hair color
black
Current Hair color
Black
Short or long hair
short
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color
no..me guai..
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair
nope..
Glasses or contacts
nope..
Do you wear make-up
i'm a guy la dude..zz..
Ever had hair extensions
no..told u im a guy..
Paint your nails
no..gal's thing..

-In the opposite gender-
What color eyes
any
What color hair
now da questions sounds lk a disipline teacher..any
Shy or Outgoing
Outgoing
Looks or personality
Both..
Sexy or Cute
sien question..
Serious or Fun
fun
Older or Younger than you
issue question
A turn on
ntg..
A turn off
ntg..
Flowers or Chocolates
4 me?or da opposite?if me choc..if opposite both
Pepsi or Coke
u mean choice of drink?or wat?dun really get it..
Rap or Rock
again..dun get it..
Relationship or One night stand
1st 1..who set tis q le?
School or Work
dun get it..
Love or Money
dun get it..
Movies or Music
dun get it..i dunno da Qs in tis section is referin 2 who le..da instruction not clear!!!
Country or City
dun get it..
Sunny or Rainy
dun..get ..it..
Friends or Family
dun get it..

-Have you ever-
Lied
ya..
Stole something
nope..
Smoked
no
Hurt someone close to you
define hurt here..
Had your heart broken
ya..
Wondered what was wrong with you
no
Wish you were a prince/princess
no
Liked someone who was taken
nope
Shaved your head
mayb
Been in love
ya
Used chopsticks
ya
Sang in the mirror to yourself
no..

-Favourite-
Flower
orchid
Candy
chewing/buble gum, vita-C, lolipop, n other nice de la choc oso
Song
nice de songs..
Scent
not 2 strong de..i hate stong scent..
Color
white, black, blue, grey, orange
Movie
nice de movie lor..
Singer
s long s got nice song
Junk food
i can eat anythin..cuz i wont get fat..
Website
at da moment my blog lo..
Locations
fun places
Animal
tortoise?i guess..my pet wat..
Ever cried over someone
no
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself
weird bhaviour?
Do you think you're attractive
no
Do you play any sports
ya..any sports bside water based de..cuz i dunno swim..

i hav no rule 2 set la..plus i lz 2 tag ppl..so done liao la me..now preparin 2 go college liao..i wan rest ar!!

Kena Tagged!

..Me now not really free de la..but still gotta finish my "homework" de..tis tag la..zz..my college sien..library no story book de..da whole college juz hav a pool table plus a table size de football game..dunno hw m i gonna stay entertain there 4 4 years..sigh..sad..happy 18th plus 1day bday o sweetie..tink u juz slept..cuz no reply from u liao..seems lk i gotta call u other day le..sigh..miss u er..well.back 2 "homework"..

Tagged by : Teh Bing(u noe who u r)

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Have you given your first kiss away?
u gotta define 1st kiss..but ya..

2. If you were to choose between going 4ward 2 future or back 2 past, which wud u choose?why?
back 2 past..i wanna stay wit her at that time frame..

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
her heart..cuz i tink i lost mine there..

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
sucessful..but there r no free thing in tis world..so 4got bout it..

5. Who would i marry?
....cant ans tis 1..cuz un4seen..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
ya..in fact i saw a circle of rainbow circling da sun..so beautiful..

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
her..

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
save it..but partially on investment..

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
tis ans pls refer 2 her..she hav all da details..

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
...em..helpful..playful n many ful..woa..so many question din change tis 1..survey ar?

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
a phd holder in heart keeping n caring n loving.....................s many s possible..

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
da genaral ppl hate de type lo..but i'm quite gud at complainin..so no specific de la..

13. Will you join politics?
i dun wanna b sniped..n i dun tink i'm that popular..

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
point it out lo..a true fren wud do so..

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
tis question is similar 2 question # 7 la wei..

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
guys usually r not..so i'm not..

17. What's on ur mind right now?
my future wit her..

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
many lo...based on my "surveys"...i'd better 2 b reborn lo..cuz hard 2 change from wat u r not in2 wat u wanna b..tis is call faking..

19. What's bothering you lately?wat else?
em..my trans 2 college de prob..n i wan extra sleep time..

20. What is life about?
life is bout learnin, sharin n teachin..no live no death..no gud no evil..etc la..

i TAG : i oso dunno..tag back meh?haha..

Way Back Into Love - Victor Wong & Fish Leong

..i find that tis is a nice nice song..but mayb da song which is in da player mite took some time 2 load la..so cant really hear it that fast..but patient la k..its worth listenin de..cant find it on u tube nor lime wire..so its rare o..


Way Back Into Love
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

Skinned Alive!!

...EEEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....Pls if u cant bear it..Dun look at da video..Seriously..I pick da article through an email sent by chee kin..Below is wat it say in its website..Warnin..U'll lost ur appitite if u view it b4 any food intake..

When undercover investigators made their way onto Chinese fur farms recently, they found that many animals are still alive and struggling desperately when workers flip them onto their backs or hang them up by their legs or tails to skin them. When workers on these farms begin to cut the skin and fur from an animal's leg, the free limbs kick and writhe. Workers stomp on the necks and heads of animals who struggle too hard to allow a clean cut. When the fur is finally peeled off over the animals' heads, their naked, bloody bodies are thrown onto a pile of those who have gone before them. Some are still alive, breathing in ragged gasps and blinking slowly. Some of the animals' hearts are still beating five to 10 minutes after they are skinned. One investigator recorded a skinned raccoon dog on the heap of carcasses who had enough strength to lift his bloodied head and stare into the camera.

Before they are skinned alive, animals are pulled from their cages and thrown to the ground; workers bludgeon them with metal rods or slam them on hard surfaces, causing broken bones and convulsions but not always immediate death. Animals watch helplessly as workers make their way down the row.



Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org

Done and Undone

..thought it was suppose 2 b a nice outtin..turn out 2 b a various purposes de outtin..real objective of it..?i dunno..heard that was 4 denisa bday..or william last outtin b4 his ns..or mayb juz get out 2gather 2 hav fun..da fact is im not enjoyin it..n yes..got back wit her..but sumhw i doesnt get much thing 2 do wit her..s a matter of fact..she was bz 2 wit da games she's playin..same wit da other fren..will n deni go 4 movie..i thought not 2 go 4 movie wit them 2 accompany her since she wan skatin..then turn out da ring there was filled wit crowd d..its lk separate in2 2 groups..will n deni and da others at pool..strange thing is that she spent more time wit da other talkin wit them than me..ok..mayb v still haven got stuck yet since i tink v r still in recovery..or mayb she thought i shud take da initiative 2 do so 1st..not her..mayb v still haven solve da prob yet or she misunderstood wat she thought was da solution/causes 4 our prob..i was totally fed up wit da so called planned schedule..even da pool is 4 pros that wish 2 hav 1 on 1..i took off da place earlier..cuz wasnt in such nice mood d..she msg after an hour i left da place..sayin y ciao so early..?so tis is a question or juz a testin msg 2 c hw bad my mood is..?either that she msg after an hour realizin my disappearance..or juz 2 c my condition after bein bz at da pool table..well i dunno..cuz i dunno wat happen over da other side..

In Search of Rainbow

..Dunno y im lk no mood 2 do anythin..Prefer stayin at home..At least theres ppl that i can talk 2..My fam..I need 2 find some colour 4 myself..I feel so dull..So grey..So liveless..Lk a living corpse..zz..I need new colours man..cuz soon i tink i'll lost all my existin colour n turn invisible..I need recipes 4 many many diff things..Recipes 4 fun, joy, excitement, etc etc...Senses r dying..Need somethin 2 bring it back 2 life again..Feel bit lk vanishin from da current dimension..Some influx..Blur..Stuff lk that..In search of rainbow..Heard tis song yday..kinda nice..




Emmy Rossum - Slow Me Down
Rushing and racing and running in circles,
Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose.
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning,
Getting nowhere.

My head and my heart are colliding - chaotic.
Pace of the world - I just wish I could stop it.
Try to appear like I've got it together - I'm falling apart.

Save me.
Somebody take my hand and lead me.
Slow me down.
Don't let love pass me by,
Just show me how.
Cause I'm ready to fall.
Slow me down.
Don't let me live a lie,
Before my life flies by.
I need you to slow me down.

Sometimes I fear that I might disappear.
In the blur of fast-forward I falter again.
Forgetting to breath,I need to sleep.
I'm getting nowhere.
All that I've missed I see in the reflection.
Passed me while I wasn't paying attention.
Tired of rushing, racing, and running.
I'm falling apart.

Tell me.
Oh won't you take my hand and lead me.
Slow me down.
Don't let love pass me by.
Just show me how.
Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down.
Don't let me live a lie,
Before my life flies by.
I need you to slow me down.
Just show me.
I need you to slow me down.

The noise of the world is getting me caught up.
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it.
Just need to breathe,
Somebody please.

Slow me down.

Sunday Blue

..Woa..Sienzz..Updated frenster d..Juz some changes la..Nothin much 2 write bout er..Sigh..Now im lk wasting time..At least weekend i'll get some fun..Sat at kbu n sun at skol..Both playin frisb..Yday got my 1st exp in ridin(sittin bhind la) on da motorbike..Kinda lk da roller cooster..Its kihraan de bike la..juz tumpang him 4 a short trip from skol 2 7-11..da down hill part was lk insane..n da speed is lk 40km/h oni..i cant imagine wats it lk when its 3 times da speed i've been through..ni way it was syok..yeah..n da songs that i post n posted hav their meanin de..if not wat 4 puttin it up o..zz..da below song i lk da front part..so clean so soft..da otherz up 2 wat u tink la...zz......



彩虹
詞/曲： 周杰倫

哪裡有彩虹告訴我
能不能把我的願望還給我
為什麼天這麼安靜
所有的雲都跑到我這裡
##有沒有口罩一個給我
釋懷說了太多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥
看不見你的笑 我怎麼睡得著
你的聲音這麼近我卻抱不到
沒有地球太陽還是會繞
沒有理由我也能自己走 ##
**你要離開 我知道很簡單
你說依賴 是我們的阻礙
就算放開 但能不能別沒收我的愛
當作我最後才明白 **

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看不見你的笑要我怎麼睡得著
你的聲音這麼近我卻抱不到
沒有地球太陽開始會繞…會繞
沒有理由我也能自己走掉
是我說了太多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥…解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥

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Something Done

..I watched jay chou's secret d..kinda warmin..juz wonder how da endin wud b..guess da guy n da gal wud eventually b in love again though da gal doesnt noe who he was earlier when he came back 20 years earlier juz b wit her again..n now i knew y promoter's pay is better than most other part time job..cuz eventually u hav 2 do everythin by urself..da hardest part was not communicating wit customer..but is setting up everythin n clearin it up again..n most of da time u'll b standin there..sometimes u wud feel really helpless..u wud feel lk bein slow by da time n everythin around u juz feel so hollow n empty..juz lk when ur electricity supply was cut off n initially u'll b stranded witout anythin much 2 do..n at that time u wud usually thought of many things..da past da present n da future..n watever that u cud thought of..n mayb after that u'll get tired n juz surrender urself 2 wat u tink is ur fate..u'll start 2 miss home..ur bed n some gud nite sleep..da next mornin u woke up..u'll pray that all it was is juz a nightmare..

Jon McLaughlin - So Close (from the movie Enchanted)

Jon McLaughlin - So Close

You’re in my arms

And all the world is calm

The music playing on for only two

So close together

And when I’m with you

So close to feeling alive

A life goes by

Romantic dreams will stop

So I bid mine goodbye and never knew

So close was waiting, waiting here with you

And now forever I know

All that I wanted to hold you

So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end

Almost believing this was not pretend

And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come

So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days

If I should lose you now?

We’re so close

To reaching that famous happy end

And almost believing this was not pretend

Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are

So close

So close

And still so far

Glen Hansard - Falling Slowly (from the movie Once)

Glen Hansard - Falling Slowly

I don't know you

But I want you

All the more for that

Words fall through me

And always fool me

And I can't react

And games that never amount

To more than they're meant

Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice

You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me

And I can't go back

Moods that take me and erase me

And I'm painted black

You have suffered enough

And warred with yourself

It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice

You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice

You've made it now

Falling slowly sing your melody

I'll sing along

***tis is da oscar winner 4 original music

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