-Chinese subbed-


-Nice instrumental version-

니가 그와 다투고
niga geuwa datugo
때론 그 땜에 울고
ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo
힘들어 할 때면 난 희망을 느끼고
himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo
아무도 모르게 맘 아-아-아프고
amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo
니작은 미소면 또 담담해지고
nijageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo

니가 혹시나 내 마음을 알게 될까봐
niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa
알아버리면 우리 멀어지게 될까봐
arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa
난 숨을 죽여
nan sumeul jug yeo
또 입술을 깨물어
tto ipsureul kkaemureo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

내 맘을 몰라줬던
nae mameul mollajwotdeon
네가 너무 미워서
nega neomu miwoseo
가끔은 네가 불행하길 난 바랬어
gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo
이미 내 눈물은 다 마 마 마르고
imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo
버릇처럼 혼자 너에게 말하고
beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago

매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난
maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan
이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라
ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla
난 눈을 감아
nan nuneul gama
끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔
kkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

부디 그와 행복해
budi geuwa haengbokhae
너를 잊을 수 있게
neoreul ijeul su itge
내 초라했던 모습들은 다 잊어줘
nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo
비록 한동안은
birok handonganeun
 no oh
나 죽을 만큼 힘이 들겠지만
na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh

너무 오랜 시간을 착각 속에
neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge
홀로 바보처럼 살았죠
hollo babocheoreom saratjyo
아직도 내 그녀는 날 보고
ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nal bogo
새 하얗게 웃고 있는데
sae hayake utgo inneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

Realize another thing recently.

Friends met each other is to be a filler and shade for each other.

Crossing paths is such a beautiful accident.

We would wonder why we would met this person but not another.

And it's similarity that brought friends together.

But how contradicting it is when actually friends share the dark but not often the light with the same person.

What it could means is that perhaps God want this pair of friend to walk together during their time of dark.

And perhaps again that's how the journey will end and another person will take over and start another journey.

Friends filled each others' void.

Out of so many peoples, why the two and how should they walk?

《 愛‧歌姬 》F.I.R. - 需要你的愛
詞：F.I.R、胡如虹、謝宥慧　曲：阿沁、陳建寧　編曲：Terence Teo
（＋、－：代表同時唱）

飛：當你選擇拉遠了距離　就這麼自私做的決定　穿破天際飛去
信：排山倒海崩塌的回憶　無時無刻襲擊我的心　痛得不能自己
合：或許你　以為把這一座城市拋開　就可以終結傷害　卻不明白

合：我需要你的愛
飛：不管多少阻礙
信：不求什麼未來
飛：不管命運會怎麼安排
合：我會　用眼淚洗去所有的不堪
＋飛：狠狠地把心痛了斷　深深地把一切重來
＋信：　　　把心痛了斷　　　　把一切重來
合：我需要你的愛
飛：像掉進了深海
信：也像墜落懸崖
飛：找不到地方可以逃開
合：別讓　那些謊言把愛給活埋
－飛：當心碎成一塊一塊　當愛碎成一段一段
－信：　　　成一塊一塊　　　　成一段一段
合：我會等待
飛：你的愛

合：排山倒海崩塌的回憶　無時無刻襲擊我的心　痛得不能自己
飛：或許你　（信：或許你）
飛：以為把這一
合：座城市拋開　就可以終結傷害　卻不明白

合：我需要你的愛
飛：不管多少阻礙
信：不求什麼未來
飛：不管命運會怎麼安排
合：我會　用眼淚洗去所有的不堪
＋飛：狠狠地把心痛了斷　深深地把一切重來
＋信：　　　把心痛了斷　　　　把一切重來
合：我需要
飛：我需要你的愛　像掉進了深海
信：也像墜落懸崖
飛：找不到地方可以逃開
合：別讓　那些謊言把愛給活埋
－飛：當心碎成一塊一塊　當愛碎成一段一段
－信：　　　成一塊一塊　　　　成一段一段
合：我會等待
（飛：我會等待　信：我會等待）
合：別讓　那些謊言把愛給活埋
－飛：當心碎成一塊一塊　當愛碎成一段一段
－信：　　　成一塊一塊　　　　成一段一段
合：我會等待

I missed yesterday.
Don't know why i feels like as if i've know everyone for a very long time.
Feels so close.
I remembered all the smiles and voices.
All the scenes.
The smell of the saloon particularly i guess.
It somehow turned a unique scent with this memory embedded in it.

Never Say Never

Some things we don't talk about
better do without
just hold a smile
we're falling in and out of love
the same damn problem

together all the while
you can never say never
why we don't know when
time and time again
younger now then we were before
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go

picture, you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
i will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

you can never say never
why we don't know when
time and time again
younger now then we were before
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go

we're falling apart
and coming together again and again
we're coming apart
but we pull it together
pull it together, together again

don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go(x2)

Two Is Better Than One

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When it's all said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

A Sad Game

Saw bryan posted this link on facebook..

A nice game

Very creative

But its sad in a way

He is alone and sad that she's gone....

http://www.gamesfree.com/game/company_of_myself.html

我怎么了

怎么那么安静

怎么那么冷淡

怎么都不想说话了

好像没了斗志

好像离群了

好像都没其他人了

好像听不见声音了

下雨天好冷好无助

好闷

好空虚

So alone

FM Static - Tonight

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you SAT AND told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

Woke up in a morning of drizzling rain

Some greyish coloured sky

Some drizzling rain droplets that i would wish it was snow flakes instead

Some light to differentiate the atmosphere in and out of the house

Random?

Yeah i guess

Patterns of life

We will live through an almost fixed graph of life

With some rare extreme values in the graph once awhile

Data forecasting seems kinda impossible in finding these extreme values though

Think i have not learnt much

Still doing the wrong things

Still that careless about my temper

Still in the old world of mine

为什么还是用那狭窄的心

来看待事情呢

那带有微笑的心去了哪

Hmm

I think i frost it

Cause its temperature always goes until overheating

Better frost it

Less danger for everyone

Sorry for those who burnt or frost by it

I'm not good at keeping it warm

Sorry.

Be brave lonely sun

And go back to where you came from, wandering ghost

Earth is very dangerous

Faster go back Mars la

Rain falls again

And i'm sick again

Tasteless

Don't know why

Feel like sealing everything in a cold heart

Email stuff

Got these from an e-mail...

The most beautiful day in your life?

Today

The easiest thing to do in life?

A mistake

What's the greatest obstacle?

Fear

The most profound tragedy in life?

Abandonment

The root of all evil?

Egotism

The greatest failure?

Lack of faith

The best teachers?

Kids

The absolute prime need?

Contact with another human being

What brings a person the greatest feeling of satisfaction?

Being of help to somebody and being appreciated

The greatest mystery?

Death

The most serious human failing?

Lack of sense of humor

The greatest enemy?

Deceit and lies

The worst emotion?

Anger

The most wonderful gift?

Forgiveness

The best defense?

A smile

The best medicine?

Optimism

The greatest might on Earth?

Faith

Do misses sms-ing

Cause without them it's like even more free and bored

So many blanks thoughts here and there

But rely too much on them will cause addiction/attachment

Which i don't want to became dependency of them

2.5 years more to reach the next possible turning point

Beyond that point is very much unknown

Just like immune system

If i survived the pain i'll turn immune to it

Hope so

Back to Quiet Life

Really had fun these few months

Had some taste of what absent from me for quite some time

Learnt a bit more

Thanks for all that happened during the journey

But now i should go back to my life before these

Like the way things are now

But it's just not suitable for me

Or i'm not suitable for it

Time to pack up and return

My temper is a double-edged sword

A thorn aura

A berserk

Scared of being a ghost

But don't want to hurt people around me

It'd better to stick with that character

Cause in the end its the same outcome

Different is i still will see the people i want to see

Even though they might not know me then

And that it wont reach them

古巨基 - 情歌王

（forever love 王力宏） 爱你不是因为你的美而已 我越来越爱你 每个眼神触动我的心 （两个人的烟火 黎明） 最爱你的是我 否则你怎麽让我 否则我怎麽可能赴汤蹈火 你说什麽都做 （如果．爱 张学友） 如果这就是爱 在转身就该勇敢留下来 就算受伤就算流泪 都是生命里温柔灌溉 （童话 光良） 我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手 变成翅膀守护你 你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 （很爱很爱你 刘若英） 往更多幸福的地方飞去 很爱很爱你只有让你拥有爱情 我才安心 （我愿意 王菲） 我愿意为你我愿意为你 我愿意为你忘记我姓名 只要你真心拿爱与我回应 我什麽都愿意 为你 （好想好想 古巨基） 好想好想 好想好想 好想好想和你在一起 （明天我要嫁给你了 周华健） 明天我要嫁给你啦 明天我要嫁给你啦 要不是你问我 要不是你劝我 要不是适当的时候你让我心动 （不得不爱 潘玮柏/弦子） 天天都需要你爱 我的心思由你猜 i love you 我就是要你让我每天都精彩 （阴天 莫文蔚） 开始总是分分钟 都妙不可言 谁都以为热情它永不会减 总之那几年 感性赢了理性那一面 （飞机场的10:30 陶喆） baby baby baby baby  O baby baby O baby 是不是拥有以后就会开始要失去 我给你的越多 你却越想要躲 爱已无法回答所有的问题 （那么爱你为什么 黄品源/莫文蔚） 离开你是傻是对是错 是看破是软弱 这结果是爱是恨或者是什么 （你怎么舍得我难过 黄品源） 最爱你的人是我 你怎么舍得我难过 对你付出了这麽多 你却没有感动过 （爱我别走 张震岳） 爱我别走 如果你说你不爱我 不要听见你真的说出口 再给我一点温柔 （让我欢喜让我忧 周华健） 就请你给我多一点点时间 再多一点点问候 不要一切都带走 就请你给我多一点点空间 再多一点点温柔 不要让我如此难受 （原来你什么都不想要 张惠妹） 原来你什么都不想要 我不要你的承诺 不要你的永远 只要你真真切切爱我一遍 就算虚荣也好,贪心也好 最怕你把沉默,当做对我的回答 原来你什么都不想要 （用心良苦 张宇） 你说你想要逃 偏偏注定要落脚 情灭了爱熄了 剩下空心要不要 （祝福 张学友） 伤离别离别虽然在眼前 说再见再见不会太遥远  若有缘有缘就能期待明天 你和我重逢在灿烂的季节 （吻别 张学友） 我和你吻别在无人的街 让风痴笑我不能拒绝 我和你吻别在狂乱的夜 我的心等着迎接伤悲 （把悲伤留给自己 陈升） 能不能让我陪着你走 既然你说留不住你 回去的路有些黑暗 担心让你一个人走 （征服 那英） 就这样被你征服切断了所有退路 我的心情是坚固我的决定是糊涂 （听海 张惠妹） 听海哭的声音 叹惜着谁又被伤了心 （味道 辛晓琪） 像你身上的味道 我想念你的吻 和手指淡淡烟草味道 记忆中曾被爱的味道 （我怀念的 孙燕姿） 我怀念的是无话不说 我怀念的是一起作梦 我怀念的是争吵以后 还是想要爱你的冲动 我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 （领悟 辛晓琪） 我多麽痛的领悟 你曾是我的全部 只愿你挣脱情的枷锁 爱的束缚任意追逐 别再为爱受苦 （月亮惹的祸 张宇） 都是你的错在你的眼中 总是藏着让人又爱又怜的朦胧 都是你的错你的痴情梦 像一个魔咒 被你爱过还能为谁蠢动 （我们的爱 fir） 我们的爱 过了就不再回来 直到现在 我还默默的等待 我们的爱 我明白 已变成你的负担 只是永远 我都放不开 最后的温暖 （你把我灌醉 黄大炜） 你把我灌醉你让我流泪 扛下了所有罪我拚命挽回 你把我灌醉你让我心碎 爱得收不回 （眼泪 范晓萱） oh 眼泪 眼泪都是我的体会 成长的滋味 oh 眼泪 忍住眼泪不让你看见 我在改变 孤单的感觉 你从不曾发现 我笑中还有泪 （情非得已 庾澄庆） 只怕我自己会爱上你 不敢让自己靠的太近 怕我没什么能够给你 爱你也需要很大的勇气 （你是如此难以忘记 梁朝伟） 你是如此的难以忘记 浮浮沉沉的在我心里 改变自己需要多少勇气 翻腾的心情该如何平息 （心太软 任贤齐） 你总是心太软心太软 把所有问题都自己扛 相爱总是简单相处太难 不是你的就别再勉强 （forever love 王力宏） forever love forever love 我只想用我这一辈子去爱你 从今以后 你会是所有 幸福的理由 forever love forever love forever love 

Living or Dead

I exist
And pass by alot of people daily
So i'm not dead
But people pass by as if im not even there
I see others walking on and off
And im just sitting there
Does feels more like an lifeless object than a living person
So am i dead or still living?

矛盾

Know whats both hate and love in one
矛盾的故事

So ARRGGHH !!

Of music boxes and passer bys

Some moments in our life
We will bump into some beautiful music boxes
We would want to get one even though we cant afford it yet
But what we dont know is that the interested crowd of people is not just us
And of cause first come first served
We would feel disappointed for being not able to get it
But everything is by chance
Which is sometimes really like 向左走向右走
Just will lack that touch

But mostly in our life
We are like music box
Staying on the shelf waiting for our turn
Sometimes we would feel envy of those that left earlier than us
Feel uneasy when the passer by choose the one beside you but just not you
Feel glad for your other music boxes that were chosen but just not quite happy with the outcome
Scared that you would just remain there alone

But in the end passer by will get music box
All music box will have a passer by
All passer by will have a music box

Loser vs Winner

Winner - emotions
Loser - logics

只记好兮不记坏

Atmosphere

I like both quiet and loud
Like how quiet looks like
Just like a spirit who sees and hears everything
Like the warmth of loud
The belonging-ness which it brings
But these two just cannot seems to merge well together
Waste

How contradicting it is for human to know where the mistakes are
But yet still fall for it
Know what should be done
But do not have the courage to do so
If its just the way of how human thought
Why cant it be revert back
Weird

Eye. Heart.

Sometimes do wonder how is it feel to be blind
Worst thing is you lost all your intermediate directions
But you see things better
That view of materialistic, instant surge of anger, envy and all the bad things to our perception is gone.
Cause the instant you are blind
You care more for what happens around you.
Cause there's less obstructions to the truth of what happened
You'll start looking at things with heart
You feel the words that are spoken
Not the sights that often covered in mist
Too bad people often act to what they saw.
Tired

=(

No mood
Feel left out
Jerk
Tired
Want to lost some memory
No memory no feel
Nothing
Empty
Everything starts from zero

Teh O Ice

No teh o ice for today
Slurpee just doesn't feel right
Just lack that bit of sweetness
Feel like lacking some sweet ending for the day
Less sweet less glucose less energy
No mood =(

Games

Games that never amount to more than they are meant
Will play themselves out

But i'm tired to continue it

Flower

Like sunflowers
Cause they seems happy all the time
Cause they have the bright sunny feeling
Cause they look like smiley emoticons
Cause they grow for light not gloom
Cause they are my horoscope's flower

Like orchids
Cause they grow well in wild yet preserve its elegance
Cause they are special
Cause they have that type of personality that i like
Cause they in many parts resembles people that have dreams and aims
Cause to me they are just beautiful

Random

Not all people are perfect
Thats why we are here to learn
Learn from each other's mistakes
We fall so that we can stand up again

Not all things happen as to our wishes
There are always flaws
Tiny loopholes that make them imperfect
So close to what you might have want
But yet not quite the same

Often we forgot how lucky we are
Or how unfortunate we are
When we were in an opposite position

Feeling is like energy source
It'll never be destroyed or lost
It'll only be transfer to another form
As to how anger can change into regret
So does hatred, love, void etc

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She's The One - Robbie Williams

I was her she was me

We were one we were free

And if there's somebody calling me on

She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on

She's the one

We were young we were wrong

We were fine all along

If there's somebody calling me on

She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go

And you know the things you wanna know

You're smiling

When you said what you wanna say

And you know the way you wanna play

You'll be so high you'll be flying

Though the sea will be strong I know we'll carry on

´Cause if there's somebody calling me on

She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on

She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go

And you know the things you wanna know

You're smiling

When you said what you wanna say

And you know the way you wanna say it

You'll be so high you'll be flying

I was her she was me

We were one we were free

If there's somebody calling me on

She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on

She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on

She's the one

Yeah she's the one

If there's somebody calling me on

She's the one

She's the one

Michael Buble - Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Watcher

To like something not neccesarily need to own it.
But rather let it to be free.
To be what it want to be.
A free soul i would called that.
Not polluted and shines just as it always do.
I like originals.
Cause that is real and not something fake just to cover eyes.
So close but if touched it will lost what it is.
Just stay as its shadow or an invisible person.
At least its close but yet remain as it is.
Happy. Happy.
Sad. Sad.

Again

So sorry today...
That shouldn't be happening..
Not what had i thought it would turn out to be as today..
Planned to have a fun day...
Planned to smile more...
Planned to joke abit...
But not like what that had happened..
Think i know the reason..Maybe...
Maybe when i wasn't involved..It does feel left out..
Thats what the contrast is between morning and afternoon..
Maybe also cause these few days wasn't talking to ppl much...
Maybe that indirectly created the left out feeling...
Sorry that i have crossed that line..
Thought i've know how not to show it out..
My mistake..
Sorry to have scarred a day not meant to be like this...
I'll learn again...

Pyramid

I would say today is a mini celebration to the LEOs(me, hon and ruyan) that i know.
So outting in pyramid.
Loong and ch is also part of the five people group.
Just had some normal activities there.
Bowling, skating, and tea break i should say?
Haha.
Don't get CINDERELLA from wong kok.
Cause its not as good as 魔鬼神话.
LoL.....
At least today had bit more fun than the usual holidays that i had la.
ps : skating still bit bored to me though....

Birthday

Today was practically woke up by sms.
But its a nice thing to see when its a wish.
Haha..
There's alot of wishes in facebook and few in smses and call.
Thanks again even though i've been saying this the whole day.
Was kinda free since i'm in semester break.
So does ethan....
Suddenly came without me having time to prepare...
Scared me.
Haha..
Thanks again for the lunch ya ethan.
Then its back to normal routine with computer and facebook.

Rain

Rain by spider13bug

Both Happy and Scared

Happy cause i met u...
Scared cause of what i am....
I'd prefer to see you as you are.
With that smile.
With that personality.
Just you.

Kuantan Trip

Came back from the trip today.
So miss the trip.
Every single details of it.
The people that was in the trip.
The atmosphere.
The laughters.
The poker cards.
The hill climbing.
The water, sand and air of the Teluk Cempedak beach.
The feeling when its all over when we reaches school.
The feeling of wanted to being there again again and again.

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empty_by_maruhana_bachi

Of Crow and I

Sigh.
Bad day.
Kena attack by crow.
Don't know why it happen also.
Weird.
So many superstitious things in mind now.
LOL.
Hope nothing la.

Note

Melancholy melody sounds for rift that was once flawless.
Time stops for the moment we fall but never halt when we wish it would.
But be brave to look forward.
Fight for all those that been there, was there, always there or might not be there when we fell.

"....When we meet, a bond between us is born for the first time. Our hearts aren't inside our bodies. When we think of something, or care about someone, that is where our hearts are born. If you were the only person in the entire world, then your heart wouldn't be anywhere. If your heart is here, then that's why you should be here....In the fights to come, there's one thing that you must never, ever do. Don't die alone....We entrust our hearts to our friends. If you entrust it to your friends, it will continue to live on inside of them. So, don't you dare die alone...."

-Kaien, Bleach episode 160-

Alone by ~Polasko

Artist's Comments
closeup/cropped center of 'Alone', 4ftx8ft, oil on wood panel, 2005

~Polasko and his quote "There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other."~Douglas Everett

One of those days

I'm happy today.
Partly cause i watch movie with friends.
Partly cause there's people that talk and joke with me today.
Partly cause i saw what i want to see today.
Too bad no rain though.
If not it would be a perfect day.
But at least i'm satisfied.

Random

It's not always rainbows and butterflies...
It's compromise that moves us along...

-Is She Will Be Loved,Maroon 5-

Words Dont Always Tell

Sparks

I want to see that colour again.
Its presence feel so comfortable.
So worry-less.
Everything is just so beautiful.
I suppose all the things that make you feel that they are special are something that we wouldn't want to lost or something that would we would keep as one of our objectives in life to get through all the possible potholes.
And we live cause of these peoples.
Cause they bring you that close resemble of warm and joy.
Something that is hard to descibe but easy to feel.

The Person that I Hate Most

All was my problem.
Its just not the scenarios that i had in mind.
That's why i always complaint about things i guess.
Being sceptical about others equals being a selfish person myself.
But why being conscious about own actions can't prevent selfishness itself?
Why did everything had to be so perfect?
Things should be in their own control but not being one of my puppet.
And i became lost in searching for it.
Lost myself.
And consumed by my own temper.
Consciousness was overshaded by it.
Lost way too many things that should had been where they were but not where they are.

Tale of an old folks?

Sometimes the best people to be with is not someone that u thought would suit to.
They'd be there even when no one knows you need someone to cheer you up.
Even if they don't know who are you.
Looking forward for a real granddaughter like my "granddaughter".
LOL.
Thanks grand(HJ's fan and wife wannabe) !

Friend or Foe

Melodies of old rhythms.
Gasping for air deep within.
So close yet so far away.
Prying eyes.
Seek no truth.
Glimpse of shadow.
Hide and seek.
Thorn in a free will smile.
Pure innocence.
Deceased shade.
Orchid's pride.
Moon and stars.

Felt

Found that similar soul.

字

原来只要几个字， 改变了语气和方式，
一句话， 也有不同解释。。。

---吴克勤，别太温柔 。

Lucky - J.Mraz ft. C.Caillat

Dedicated to all the couples and happening love stories.





Songwriters: Caillat, Colbie Marie; Fagen, Timothy James; Mraz, Jason Thomas;


Do you heard me? I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby i'm trying

Boy i heard you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where i have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohh, ohh, ohh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Everytime we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I'll promise you, I will

I'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where i have been
Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so i'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Through the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all i see
As the world keeps spinning 'round
You hold me right here, right now

I'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where i have been
Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ohh ohh ohh
Ohh ohh ohh, ohh

Balancing

Mine is a completely two different lives.
One is which i like alot, miss alot, enjoy alot.
The other is the road that i have to take.
For the sake of future.
No best of both world.
Sacrifice one for another.
Have to.
Suddenly feel so wanted to enjoy that life i like.
Just like a sudden thirst.
Think its the only thing that drives me going these days.
Just miss those familiar sounds.
Feel so heavy-hearted to restart the weekend countdown timer over and over again.
Wasn't it good to be able to watch and enjoy it a little longer and longer and longer.

Monash Music Fest

First impression of reaching there was like "wa".
Cause was kinda small for an event that would last for 12 hours.
Went there with hon, denisa and grace.
Then later met with denisa/grace's friend(forgot her name).
Then CH and CK came.
Think its CK's birthday around the corner.
Basicly was bit bored.
LoL.
Pretty much aimed for female consumer.
Even guys that attended mostly are promoters, or as a boyfriend.
Kesian the guys there.
Haha.
Either way at least better than stuck at home.
Grace would probably agree on this.
Oh ya.
The "goodie bag" that the organizer given out to us got those....
"7-11 specialty".......
LoL.
Since hon and me dont require those...
We gave them to denisa.
Utilize THEM ya denisa.
LoL.
This post was kinda late since whole day yesterday my internet is down.
Anyway i had fun that day la.

Stars

Came home at about 8.30pm today.
The sky was clear of clouds unlike the other days.
Been long time since i saw stars decorating the sky.
Feel so comfortable.
My class was not bad after all.
All of them are friendly and nice.
Should be glad i guess.
Conversely its the other side of my life which i thought would be the better one starts to show its dullness.

Frisbee Camp

I really had fun times at it.
Just like a movie.
Got climax.
Got happy ending.
Got happy, got not so happy.
Got nervous moments.
Love all the stupid ghost jokes.
Love the chor dai ti "tournament".
Mr Micheal actually did make it more memorable.
Cause if he wasn't there, then the frisbee camp chapter wasn't that complete.
Now waiting ethan to upload his "New Folder" of the camp.

Of Fire Dance and Ice Dance

Love Fire Dance alot!
My primary band's winning theme back in 2002.
Many standard 6 nice memory there.
Prefect. Won band competition. Made a girl cry. Like that girl. Etc.
So many memories.
Sounds so childhood and childish.
Fire burn brief though.
Ice eventually took over from it.
Found Ice Dance recently.
It was produced in 1990.
Johnny Depp's movie.
Edward Scissorhands.

Fire is to warm.
Warm oneself or people around it.
When it die, often cold comes.
How to light a fire?
Is mood its starter?
Or is it through breaking free from a winter?
Should we start fire?
Or should we wait someone else to start it?
Fact is there won't be fire unless someone starts it.
Problem is who would take the first step.
Ironically is the person who doesn't wish to see the other die of winter.
Maybe if a person worth less compare to the others, that person would just be left out.
We are travellers in the journey of life, collecting senses and colours.

Re: Tag by William Shak"speare" =.=|||

1. The person who tagged you
William Shak Soo Wei. 901126-xx-xxxx. WANTED.

2. Your relationship with him/her is
Classified. Shhh.

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her
=X times 5 . *Subject to violation of privacy.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
dun really recall. sry !

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you
refer ans # 4.

6. If he/she becomes your lover you will
ask GOD whats wrong with humans nowadays.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be
pls go thailand do surgery 1st.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will
refer ans # 6.

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be
refer ans #8.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now
refer ans # 9.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is
18SG, U, 18PL, PG13, wat else...hmmm..

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
Weird, 18SG etc?

13. The characters you love of yourself are
refer ans # 10?

14.On the contrary, the characters that you hate about yourself
*overloading errors*. *application is terminated*.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is
derno?

16. For people who care and love you, say something to them
To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

17. Pass this test to 10 persons who you wished to know how they feel about you.
*SKIP*

Not Good Enough

Often we found ourselves at the top of our world.
Looking to the others and says I'm not wrong.
How often will we even judge ourselves wrong?
That's cause we never really look into how others think.
It might be good enough for us.
But it would definately tell a different story for the others.
To feel "realized" takes quite some time.
To feel "puzzled" or "upset" would be the instant ones.
Back to the basic.
Learn from scratch.
Be motivated.
Accept the wrong.
Change anew.
Be thankful for the wrong cause it'll make you a better person.
Those that dares to say you wrong is definately your friend.
Cause they risk everything beautiful in exchange for your acceptance and understanding.

Re: Tag by william & denisa

001. Real name → In my IC
002. Nickname(s)→ My friends know
003/4. Zodiac sign → Horse
005. Male or female → Male
006. Elementary → Kindergarten near my place
007. Middle School → Middle school near my place also
008. High School → SMJK Katholik, not that near
009. College School → APIIT, very far
010. Hair color → Original
011. Long or short → Not long not short
012. Loud or Quiet → Not loud not quiet
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Camera
015. Health freak → Kinda
016. Drink or Smoke? → Softdrink
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → mun hon, last week, m1v1+m2v2=0
018. Eat or Drink → I want both
019. Piercings → ouch, no
020. Tattoos → None

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → nonononono
024. First best friend → cant recall
025. First award → almost in erosion
026. First crush → m1v1+m2v2=0 ??
027. First pet → Terrapins, turtle or watever it called
028. First big vacation → Dunnno
030. First big birthday → Dunno

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nothing
050. Drinking → Nothing
052. I'm about to → cont q.053
053. Listening to → my computer's sound
054. Plans for today → games, study, sleep
055. Waiting for → Something important??

FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ = =
059. Want to get married? → = =
060. Careers in mind → Sit home and money come in itself

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → n/a
070. Shorter or taller? → n/a
072. Romantic or spontaneous → n/a
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → n/a
074. Sensitive or loud→ n/a
075. Hook-up or relationship → n/a
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → n/a

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → I have only 2 eyes
081. Ran away from home → So far no
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → thats cool, but no
083. Killed somebody → ya, in my dreams
084. Broken someone's heart → ya
085. Been arrested → So far so good, no
087. Cried when someone died → ya

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → last resort/solution when all fails is yourself
090. Miracles → doubt and believe
091. Love at first sight → Depends
092. Heaven → wait i K O, then i tell
093. Santa Claus → C'mon...
094 Tooth Fairy→ Man.....
095. Kiss on the first date→ swt?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → no
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → no complaints
099. Do you believe in God → theory and calming purpose, existance i dunno
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

Tag: People that see this. Pls be honest.

Sick liao

How good is it without sickness.
Once we had one, we will feel the significance of having something that will make the most out of our days.
Think i am having fever.
Feels like burning all over.
No energy.
Occasionally stomach pain also.
Damn sad.
Now no mood to do anything.
No appetite.
Sien.

One Litre of Tears

Actually that was a really nice short drama.
I have not yet finish that though.
But anyhow think i reached episode 6.
1 more to go i guess.
Below was just a direct translation.

"Even though i might be hurt by unintended views, but i understand at the same time there are views that warm my heart; That's why i wont avoid, because there's always this day." - episode 6[Unintended views].

"I wont say i want go back to that day, i must recognize who i am and live my life." - episode 5[Journal of an handicapped].

"Words like fate, can't be easily accepted by people" - episode 3[Why i was picked].

These words are from the diary of the real story of Aya Kitou.

........

How does it feel to be someone who exist but seemingly invisible?
A shadow's feeling?
Close enough..
Cause it just follows..
None other..
Really hard la talking with people..
Sometimes being an observant not bad lo..
At least it's like watching drama..
Get to indulge in different characters' story..
Thing is..
Not all drama is happy ending..
Too bad..
I start to think that everything we had learn is what God want us to learn..
So that we'll be better prepared next time..
Bearing this thought in mind..
We would think that what's we preparing for?
That's what make us moving?
To feel is involuntary..
To have thoughts to explain how it felt is not a feeling..
Everyone that comes in contact with us is part of ourselves..
They made our history..
I say history cause we wont repeat anything that went wrong..
Just like all histories were..
Dont mind what i just said here..
Just a record in case i wanna see how crazy i was..
Just another lame old bored post that craps over time..

Valentine Matchday

Today was like WAO...
Cause flowers that were bought yesterday gotta bring it LRT all the way from taman jaya to cheras...
Gosh my part of work was until just buy and deliver them safely for WJ and ethan to handle...
Kind of funny when people were looking at us...
It's like so early this group of people start valentines day?
LoL...
I suggested this idea to give flowers to girls in the team that come today mainly cause we all have limited time to spend as a team...
So why not make every occasion something worth to remember?
Besides, the girls sacrifice their time today which they can get a day off to be with anyone that might date them..
So i think partly also the responsiblity of guys in the team to do something as token of appreciation...
I'll think of something to do when the next occasion comes...
Hope they got take picture with their flowers...

Scared and Happy?

Scared cause i went doctor this early morning.
Yesterday FINALLY the toe nail cracked.
Scared not cause the physical pain.
Scared cause the time is running out soon.
Time is what that i have to be with my team of friends.
Though not all is leaving.
But it just wont feel the same with the same peoples around.
Scared it'll minus some of the time.
Ya Ya Ya....
I'm thinking far far away again...
Still i'm glad that we all can spent time together.
Have fun.
Was cyber-ing at sri petaling after meeting with doctor.
With huan, will, casey, hon, sam, and darren.
5 hours just like few blink of eyelids.
Sometimes just wish there were more time to have.
Actually we skip our lunch in the process.
So..
We chao to telefon restaurant for lunch-dinner.



casey with the oyster ice cream..



sam and the pineapple lollipop..



huan with his stunt again...look clearly..

Start Understanding The Concept of Psychology

Some things in life cause people to feel, these are called emotional reactions. Some things in life cause people to think, these are sometimes called logical or intellectual reactions. Thus life is divided between things that make you feel and things that make you think. The question is, if someone is feeling, does that mean that they are thinking less? It probably does. If part of your brain is being occupied by feeling, then it makes sense that you have less capacity for thought. That is obvious if you take emotional extremes, such as crying, where people can barely think at all. This does not mean that emotional people are not intelligent; it just means that they might be dumber during the times in which they are emotional. Emotion goes on and off for everyone, sometimes people cry, and sometimes they are completely serious............

-Mark Pettinelli

More on http://cnx.org/content/m14358/latest/

Its actually the way of how people see things.

Those that are trapped is just because they have not yet found the exit.

I found mine when i come across this.

Kinda.

Its just a way release.

A view from a different aspect.

Re : Yi Ping's Tag

tagged by: yi ping



The Rules:

1. Take picture of yourself at this instant

2. Don't change your clothes, Don't fix your hair. Just take a picture

3. Post the picture taken with NO EDITING

4. Post your picture with the instructions

5. Tag 8 people




..o.O?..my pic..? told 'ya internet is down...haha..



i tag :
deanna
denisa
william
mun hon
chien hooong
carine
miaw fen
zhi shan

Help Me if You Have Any Ideas

Gosh.
My toe nail seems like gonna get detached anytime should any impact happens on it. (i think)
I checked internet.
Say until there's chances of getting fungus infection.
Zzz.
Then those forum say about bleeding, removal, infection etc.
If have not yet eat sure no appetite eat lo.
I need to know anything that can help me delay the detachment.
As in during tournament on 14/2.
Need start to get prepared for the worst.

Still..."Ghosted"

"Comparison are easily done

once you've a taste of perfection....."

-lyrics from thinking of you by katy perry

We do feel sad.

Cause we had been in the perfection of happiness before.

We tend to compare with better ones.

Feel left out, isolated, jeolous, other weird behaviour etc.....

Cause we do not have what other have.

That's why we feel so.

It's normal i guess.

Helping other en route to their perfection was sometimes a contradiction.

Cause part of the work is helping our own self.

And facing our own ghost.

Are we doing ourselves a big help by helping ourselves?

Or are we going back to be haunted?

Do we pretend to be ok?

Or do we learn to be ok?

Who can help?

And who needs help?

Signal Fire - Snow Patrol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I7taFtKZEDA

Don't know what happen with the embed of youtube.
So i just put the link.
Maybe my college computer ban gua.
I'll try access again later when i'm home.
The video of the clip was nice.
Child's drama version of spiderman.
And nice song.

Weird

Why sometimes when you found a whole lot of complaints but no one to talk with?
Why sometimes people turn back when they lost all the support that once made them so invulnerable?
Why must we always tell something that wasn't meant to be said?
Why sometimes we try so hard but it just won't turn out the way we hope it should be?
Why sometimes when we take a slow replay of everything that had happened we would have think differently?
Why being able to see a wide blue sky is always comfortable than lying on the bed watching the ceiling?
What made us as who we are but not telling us why we are?

Lame post..Weird thoughts..

Giving Better than Receiving

Today celebrating kc's birthday.
Actually was a day earlier but we had our custom that way.
Got hon to accompany me go buy present.
I bought two sets.
One for kc.
One for yi ping.
Sometimes buying a friend's present isn't about sharing the cost with another.
At least this time i don't plan to collect shares.
Feel happy when i'm always in something.
Vice versa.
Everyone is not perfect.
We all learn from what that make us fall.
Just that sometimes something is better kept in certain ways.
Life is full of possibilities.
I can see that.
But there are many different approches.
Some people prefer keep running the pace.
Some prefer staying back.
But i don't know where am i.
Staying back or looking forward.....
Maybe i keep on hesitating.
That's why i'm pretty much constant.

Re : Fi's & Will's & Denisa's Tag

[Instructions: Strike out the ‘NO’s’ OR underline/colour/bold the ‘YES’s’ AND tag 6 people after you’re done. ]

1. Coffee /Tea
2. Noodle / Rice
3. Ocean / Lake
4. Phone / Computer
5. Smsing / Calling
6. Durians / Fried Worms
7. Coke / Sprite
8. Cold weather / Hot weather
9. Pancakes / Waffles
10. Sand / Grass
11. Vanilla / Chocolate
12. Coughing / Sneezing
13. Paper / Plastic
14. Gold / Silver
15. Watermelon / Strawberry
16. Slippers / Shoes
17. Early Bird / Night owl
18. Books / Magazines
19. Tall / Short
20. Heaven Above / Paradise on Earth

Re : Denisa's Tag

1.What's your most favourite colour?
black or white

2. What is the most important to you?
family and friends

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
when i feel no purpose?

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
depends..

5. How many babies you want?
wait i hav gf 1st la..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes..duh..unless thr's pollution la..

7. What is your goal for this year?
b under "shiny weather"..

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
not really.."it's 1 in a million..chances of finding sum1 lk u...." (HSM3 track 2)

9. Who are your best friends?
depends gua..i dun lk classify these things..

10.What are you really afraid of?
"bad weather" tht strikes in life...

11. What do you want most?
fairy tale?

12. What's your opinion with Distance relationship?
it wont work..

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
ya..learnt tht..

14. What does flying means to you?
when dreams come true?

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
fun?

16. single or in a relationship?
single..

17. What you want to achieve most in life?
live with purpose and not walk withouy shadow..

18. Who you wish to live your life with?
every1..cuz u wont noe wat is tear until sum1 make u cry..

19. What is the worst case scenario happen to you in your life?
haiyo..wat passed is history la..

20.What do you wish for your birthday present?
sincerity