Am I Dead?

..i cant heard my heart beat..it's lk its dead or its reluctant 2 cont..sometimes i find it hard 2 bear da nite..cuz whenever im alone or in quiet surroundin..she's da 1st that comes in my mind..memories can b wat that inspire u..but it can b oso wat that stops u from progressin..if u ever watch will smith's im da legend..i guess v almost share da same feelin minus da hate..fren mite b ur cure..but in my case its lk hoping 2 c flyin stars everynite..my fault oso mayb..wat i can do now is juz 2 let time 2 consume my pain..set it free..let it go..hope it gone..wish it well..thats one of da hardest things 2 do..after that mayb i'll juz keep my heart in a locker n froze it up..til some1 find it n melt it again..so lk davy jones's style..