Changes

..life is not a constant..things'll change..n v live 2 learn n 2 adapt..v learn though wat v c, hear, touch, smell n taste..2 c or not 2 c will explain wat is somethin from da outside..but 2 observe v'll c wat is inside..anger'll haze da truth..oni da 3rd party'll sometimes noe hw 2 differenciate..words r da same..words that v hear r not always wat they meant..but more lk a disguise 2 wat it is..words r lk triggers 2 emotions..diff type of sharpness n tones often'll lead 2 diff scenario..sometimes v'll juz speak from our emotions not knowin da consequence..sometimes a little 1st aid'll do..sometimes not even gods can help..wud it b better 2 b silent n keep da thoughts inside davy jones' locker?both yes n no..there's lie n white lie s da result of it..touch smell n taste on da other hand'll bcome less significant s v grew older..if life is juz illusions in our dream..will v b able 2 wake up from its nitemare?n cont in its sweet happy endin?

-i'm nuts-

Realize

Colbie Caillat - Realize

Take time to realize,

That your warmth is

Crashing down on in.

Take time to realize,

That I am on your side

Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,

Then we'd be perfect for each other

and will never find another

Just realized what I just realized

we'd never have to wonder if

we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize

Oh-oh I'm on your side

didn't I, didn't I tell you.

Take time to realize

This all can pass you by

Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,

no it's never gonna be that simple

no I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized

then we'd be perfect for each other

then we'd never find another

Just realized what I just realized

we'd never have to wonder if

we missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same

no it's never the same if you don't feel it too.

If you meet me half way

If you would meet me half way.

It could be the same for you.

If you just realize what I just realized

then we'd be perfect for each other

then we'd never find another

Just realize what I just realized

we'd never have to wonder

Just realize what I just realized

If you just realize what I just realized

OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now

missed out on each other now

Realize, realize

realize, realize

..kinda realize things recently..many things..it's gud 2 learn though..college life still s hectic s ever..still there's more 2 come..more 2 face..more 2 bare..more 2 let go..another defination of wats life is..n pls dun tag me la..lz plus tag not fun d..n sorry if i din go 2 some of u guys' blog..bit tired when i reach home d..not much time 2 check out..but i promise i'll spend sometime on it de k..

Late Update Again Er Me

..tournament day on 5/4 @uitm shah alam..gh pick da team name s el ninos..means da kids..really happy tis tournie..finally can meet fi..really miss her alot..v went there by bus n every1 hav 2 reach chs by 7..no1 late though..v won our 1st match against nottingham 8-1 i tink..but lost da 2nd 1 6-1 2 da host..3rd natch won 5-2 if not mistaken..cant rmb da score d..but eventually got #4 la..gosh no flyin naan..if not no hope 2 play..i still rmb da fun part where some of us get under da big umbrella 4 shelter against rain..tink i'm da 1 that 'found' that nice place 2 hide from rain..v lower da umbrella then bout 9 of us shelter under it..kinda cosy in there..no much wind get through there..i n my fi keepin each other warm while playin grace de 'high' game..kc n sj de team called jin choon..i n fi de called jiun fai..grace n deni de called zi sim..then mh n kihraan de called kihhon..very funny..haha..after our last match i got a suprize..every1 came back from their mud slide lk very normal..then all of a sudden every1 grab me n toss me in2 da mud pool..ewh..i was lk a mud-man..u can c in da pics..haha..really miss da fun v had there..especially missin her after she went home after da team dinner at ipoh chic rice..v had our own little private moment though in da bus..its gonna b another week til i c her again..college life back again n its tiring n bz..really wish everyday is weekend er......

Not again..

..start bz liao..so update'll b kinda late..so tired..summore college de work no plaguerism..sien..now i gotta try cite every source i use liao..

tagged by teh ping again..no........

-You-
First Name
ka fai
Nickname
dun wish 2 tell..ask my fren lar..
Name you wish you had
mine is not bad..any'll do..
What do people normally mistake your name as
ka"h" fai..got 1 extra "h"..zz..need 2 clarify everytime..
Birthday
18 August 1990
Birthplace
Assunta Hospital, PJ
Time of Birth
wanna put a curse on me meh?
Single or taken
taken jor..
Zodiac sign
Leo

-Your Appearence-
How tall are you
din measure long time d..
Wish you were taller
ya
Ideal height
tall la..
Eye color
Dark brown
Eye color you want
any colour
Natural Hair color
black
Current Hair color
Black
Short or long hair
short
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color
no..me guai..
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair
nope..
Glasses or contacts
nope..
Do you wear make-up
i'm a guy la dude..zz..
Ever had hair extensions
no..told u im a guy..
Paint your nails
no..gal's thing..

-In the opposite gender-
What color eyes
any
What color hair
now da questions sounds lk a disipline teacher..any
Shy or Outgoing
Outgoing
Looks or personality
Both..
Sexy or Cute
sien question..
Serious or Fun
fun
Older or Younger than you
issue question
A turn on
ntg..
A turn off
ntg..
Flowers or Chocolates
4 me?or da opposite?if me choc..if opposite both
Pepsi or Coke
u mean choice of drink?or wat?dun really get it..
Rap or Rock
again..dun get it..
Relationship or One night stand
1st 1..who set tis q le?
School or Work
dun get it..
Love or Money
dun get it..
Movies or Music
dun get it..i dunno da Qs in tis section is referin 2 who le..da instruction not clear!!!
Country or City
dun get it..
Sunny or Rainy
dun..get ..it..
Friends or Family
dun get it..

-Have you ever-
Lied
ya..
Stole something
nope..
Smoked
no
Hurt someone close to you
define hurt here..
Had your heart broken
ya..
Wondered what was wrong with you
no
Wish you were a prince/princess
no
Liked someone who was taken
nope
Shaved your head
mayb
Been in love
ya
Used chopsticks
ya
Sang in the mirror to yourself
no..

-Favourite-
Flower
orchid
Candy
chewing/buble gum, vita-C, lolipop, n other nice de la choc oso
Song
nice de songs..
Scent
not 2 strong de..i hate stong scent..
Color
white, black, blue, grey, orange
Movie
nice de movie lor..
Singer
s long s got nice song
Junk food
i can eat anythin..cuz i wont get fat..
Website
at da moment my blog lo..
Locations
fun places
Animal
tortoise?i guess..my pet wat..
Ever cried over someone
no
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself
weird bhaviour?
Do you think you're attractive
no
Do you play any sports
ya..any sports bside water based de..cuz i dunno swim..

i hav no rule 2 set la..plus i lz 2 tag ppl..so done liao la me..now preparin 2 go college liao..i wan rest ar!!

Kena Tagged!

..Me now not really free de la..but still gotta finish my "homework" de..tis tag la..zz..my college sien..library no story book de..da whole college juz hav a pool table plus a table size de football game..dunno hw m i gonna stay entertain there 4 4 years..sigh..sad..happy 18th plus 1day bday o sweetie..tink u juz slept..cuz no reply from u liao..seems lk i gotta call u other day le..sigh..miss u er..well.back 2 "homework"..

Tagged by : Teh Bing(u noe who u r)

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Have you given your first kiss away?
u gotta define 1st kiss..but ya..

2. If you were to choose between going 4ward 2 future or back 2 past, which wud u choose?why?
back 2 past..i wanna stay wit her at that time frame..

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
her heart..cuz i tink i lost mine there..

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
sucessful..but there r no free thing in tis world..so 4got bout it..

5. Who would i marry?
....cant ans tis 1..cuz un4seen..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
ya..in fact i saw a circle of rainbow circling da sun..so beautiful..

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
her..

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
save it..but partially on investment..

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
tis ans pls refer 2 her..she hav all da details..

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
...em..helpful..playful n many ful..woa..so many question din change tis 1..survey ar?

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
a phd holder in heart keeping n caring n loving.....................s many s possible..

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
da genaral ppl hate de type lo..but i'm quite gud at complainin..so no specific de la..

13. Will you join politics?
i dun wanna b sniped..n i dun tink i'm that popular..

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
point it out lo..a true fren wud do so..

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
tis question is similar 2 question # 7 la wei..

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
guys usually r not..so i'm not..

17. What's on ur mind right now?
my future wit her..

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
many lo...based on my "surveys"...i'd better 2 b reborn lo..cuz hard 2 change from wat u r not in2 wat u wanna b..tis is call faking..

19. What's bothering you lately?wat else?
em..my trans 2 college de prob..n i wan extra sleep time..

20. What is life about?
life is bout learnin, sharin n teachin..no live no death..no gud no evil..etc la..

i TAG : i oso dunno..tag back meh?haha..

Way Back Into Love - Victor Wong & Fish Leong

..i find that tis is a nice nice song..but mayb da song which is in da player mite took some time 2 load la..so cant really hear it that fast..but patient la k..its worth listenin de..cant find it on u tube nor lime wire..so its rare o..


Way Back Into Love
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

Skinned Alive!!

...EEEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....Pls if u cant bear it..Dun look at da video..Seriously..I pick da article through an email sent by chee kin..Below is wat it say in its website..Warnin..U'll lost ur appitite if u view it b4 any food intake..

When undercover investigators made their way onto Chinese fur farms recently, they found that many animals are still alive and struggling desperately when workers flip them onto their backs or hang them up by their legs or tails to skin them. When workers on these farms begin to cut the skin and fur from an animal's leg, the free limbs kick and writhe. Workers stomp on the necks and heads of animals who struggle too hard to allow a clean cut. When the fur is finally peeled off over the animals' heads, their naked, bloody bodies are thrown onto a pile of those who have gone before them. Some are still alive, breathing in ragged gasps and blinking slowly. Some of the animals' hearts are still beating five to 10 minutes after they are skinned. One investigator recorded a skinned raccoon dog on the heap of carcasses who had enough strength to lift his bloodied head and stare into the camera.

Before they are skinned alive, animals are pulled from their cages and thrown to the ground; workers bludgeon them with metal rods or slam them on hard surfaces, causing broken bones and convulsions but not always immediate death. Animals watch helplessly as workers make their way down the row.



Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org

Done and Undone

..thought it was suppose 2 b a nice outtin..turn out 2 b a various purposes de outtin..real objective of it..?i dunno..heard that was 4 denisa bday..or william last outtin b4 his ns..or mayb juz get out 2gather 2 hav fun..da fact is im not enjoyin it..n yes..got back wit her..but sumhw i doesnt get much thing 2 do wit her..s a matter of fact..she was bz 2 wit da games she's playin..same wit da other fren..will n deni go 4 movie..i thought not 2 go 4 movie wit them 2 accompany her since she wan skatin..then turn out da ring there was filled wit crowd d..its lk separate in2 2 groups..will n deni and da others at pool..strange thing is that she spent more time wit da other talkin wit them than me..ok..mayb v still haven got stuck yet since i tink v r still in recovery..or mayb she thought i shud take da initiative 2 do so 1st..not her..mayb v still haven solve da prob yet or she misunderstood wat she thought was da solution/causes 4 our prob..i was totally fed up wit da so called planned schedule..even da pool is 4 pros that wish 2 hav 1 on 1..i took off da place earlier..cuz wasnt in such nice mood d..she msg after an hour i left da place..sayin y ciao so early..?so tis is a question or juz a testin msg 2 c hw bad my mood is..?either that she msg after an hour realizin my disappearance..or juz 2 c my condition after bein bz at da pool table..well i dunno..cuz i dunno wat happen over da other side..

In Search of Rainbow

..Dunno y im lk no mood 2 do anythin..Prefer stayin at home..At least theres ppl that i can talk 2..My fam..I need 2 find some colour 4 myself..I feel so dull..So grey..So liveless..Lk a living corpse..zz..I need new colours man..cuz soon i tink i'll lost all my existin colour n turn invisible..I need recipes 4 many many diff things..Recipes 4 fun, joy, excitement, etc etc...Senses r dying..Need somethin 2 bring it back 2 life again..Feel bit lk vanishin from da current dimension..Some influx..Blur..Stuff lk that..In search of rainbow..Heard tis song yday..kinda nice..




Emmy Rossum - Slow Me Down
Rushing and racing and running in circles,
Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose.
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning,
Getting nowhere.

My head and my heart are colliding - chaotic.
Pace of the world - I just wish I could stop it.
Try to appear like I've got it together - I'm falling apart.

Save me.
Somebody take my hand and lead me.
Slow me down.
Don't let love pass me by,
Just show me how.
Cause I'm ready to fall.
Slow me down.
Don't let me live a lie,
Before my life flies by.
I need you to slow me down.

Sometimes I fear that I might disappear.
In the blur of fast-forward I falter again.
Forgetting to breath,I need to sleep.
I'm getting nowhere.
All that I've missed I see in the reflection.
Passed me while I wasn't paying attention.
Tired of rushing, racing, and running.
I'm falling apart.

Tell me.
Oh won't you take my hand and lead me.
Slow me down.
Don't let love pass me by.
Just show me how.
Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down.
Don't let me live a lie,
Before my life flies by.
I need you to slow me down.
Just show me.
I need you to slow me down.

The noise of the world is getting me caught up.
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it.
Just need to breathe,
Somebody please.

Slow me down.

Sunday Blue

..Woa..Sienzz..Updated frenster d..Juz some changes la..Nothin much 2 write bout er..Sigh..Now im lk wasting time..At least weekend i'll get some fun..Sat at kbu n sun at skol..Both playin frisb..Yday got my 1st exp in ridin(sittin bhind la) on da motorbike..Kinda lk da roller cooster..Its kihraan de bike la..juz tumpang him 4 a short trip from skol 2 7-11..da down hill part was lk insane..n da speed is lk 40km/h oni..i cant imagine wats it lk when its 3 times da speed i've been through..ni way it was syok..yeah..n da songs that i post n posted hav their meanin de..if not wat 4 puttin it up o..zz..da below song i lk da front part..so clean so soft..da otherz up 2 wat u tink la...zz......



彩虹
詞/曲： 周杰倫

哪裡有彩虹告訴我
能不能把我的願望還給我
為什麼天這麼安靜
所有的雲都跑到我這裡
##有沒有口罩一個給我
釋懷說了太多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥
看不見你的笑 我怎麼睡得著
你的聲音這麼近我卻抱不到
沒有地球太陽還是會繞
沒有理由我也能自己走 ##
**你要離開 我知道很簡單
你說依賴 是我們的阻礙
就算放開 但能不能別沒收我的愛
當作我最後才明白 **

Repeat ## **

RAP
看不見你的笑要我怎麼睡得著
你的聲音這麼近我卻抱不到
沒有地球太陽開始會繞…會繞
沒有理由我也能自己走掉
是我說了太多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥…解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥

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